So i guess with this what i write im fiucked up wright?
most probably, yes...
Unless you used the persistence feature, or saved the wallet on a different medium, the wallet is gone. In other words: if you didn't take explicit action in order to save the wallet file persistently, it is gone... This feature is clearly documented in tail's documentation.
It has nothing to do with the hardware, you just chose to use a live OS that is configured not to leave a single trace.
You never explicitly said you didn't write down the seed, but i'm pretty sure that not answering this question is an answer on itself...
I hope you didn't fund the address generated by your wallet with to much... If it's just a couple bucks, you should probably consider it a tuition fee... Next time, make sure you understand the technology you're using, and read the messages that are printed on your screen... When you were generating a wallet, the seed must have been clearly shown to you, and in the next step of the wallet generation, you must have been asked to repeat the seed phrase that was shown to you... IIRC, the messages shown in this step clearly tell you you HAVE to save the seed on a piece of paper.
Electrum even goes as far as clearing the clipboard between the two steps, so you can't just copy the seed in the first step and paste it in the second step... There's a reason for this.
Sorry for your loss...