I know we have different style and behavior. Some people might be lucky on bulk bankroll and others is like me who’s lucky on small bankroll. What do you guys use?
To be honest, I've rarely played the game you play. especially to play Blackjack, I can't remember the last time I played it. but the essence is the same, that when we visit a casino, it is none other than to gamble, regardless of the type of gambling. I mostly bet on football, or, play slots which are easier without having to use any skills and just hoping for luck.
Referring to what you told in this thread, I guess it is a matter of habit. I mean, patterns that become your habits. either when you play with a big bankroll, or, a small bankroll. the difference is, when you play with a big bankroll, you lose a little bit of control because you aim for more wins. but the opposite happens, when you use a small bankroll. you play more carefully, because as you say. if you bet carelessly, the game will end quickly.
I don't want to teach you, or patronize. sometimes, realizing it or not, the strong urge to target or want to get big wins has always been our problem. which in the end, we become greedy and careless. So, your experience is our experience. however, at least, you have to change the pattern that becomes your habit. at least, you are not motivated to always make big profits every gambling session. I myself only play with a small bankroll when playing slots. because the winning ratio we have, is very small. but for football betting, I can bet with a big bankroll. but it depends on which team will compete, and what is the probability of winning that I will get from a single betting session.