The OP post was very poetic and I felt like I was reading a fiction novel, quite interesting. Almost every new investors faced that peculiar challenge when they started their Bitcoin investment journey, especially if there's no crypto experienced person to guide and encourage them not to panic and sale during bear run, and make them to understand how the Bitcoin circle works, that it's better to sale in bull run. To enjoy the full benefits of Bitcoin investment, it's investors needs to have regular sources of income, so that their financial needs will not compel them to sale during price dip, because that is the best time to buy.
Quite poetic, I must quip.
With interest comes open doors. It is so because one won't need any external motivation to make them do that which sets their soul on fire.
Sorry am speaking in peotic terms, but I think OP gets my drift.
I admire your perseverance and am sure there were a lot of hurdles before you even discovered this community, else it would have been a rollercoaster for you.
There's so much opportunity with BTC or cryptocurrency, and with the ETF being approved and other regulations being enforced to make it more accepted, a time will come when people who don't own cryptocurrency will be forced to relocate to more rural environments because of the times changing faster than they can catch up.