I've once watched a gambling livestream on youtube, I never had any plan of gambling that day, but after watching the livestream, I start feeling like it could be a lucky day for me, I deposited money I was supposed to use to attend to some really important, hoping I would win and withdraw the money back plus profit, I eventually lost all of it, since that, I stopped watching gambling livestreams, or any video related to gambling which is not about pure gambling education.
Watching someone gamble does have a positive impact on me. I enjoy it. It gives me the pleasure of gambling even though I am not the one who's playing. I'll be honest, there were times before (when I was just new to the gambling industry) when watching people gamble drives me to play. It often happens when I watch clips of people winning big.
To everyone, or anyone who accepts others' opinions, here's mine: watch streamers instead! why? Because you can also witness that they are also losing, and that will give you better judgment for your decision of whether to play or not. Thus it'll make you more rational rather than just watching clips of streamers winning big multipliers. On the other hand, if you already can control and decide better, then watch as you please. Just always remember to be responsible.
It's saddening that you had experienced getting too excited and proceeded to gamble the funds that are important to you. Well, on the brighter side, that should be a lesson for you. I also experienced that as I mentioned earlier, and gladly learned from it!