It's normal to be sad if we're experiencing hardships in life and feel lonely if we don't have anyone besides us but relying on the comfort of gambling will not make the situation better. We can only feel more disappointed if we will have losses because we are too emotional. There are still many ways to ease our loneliness and gambling should not be our solution.
It looks like OP is facing a hard time in his life due to his mother being hospitalized and urdergoing a surgery, so his mind needed a relief for a brief moment and gambling seemed the perfect choice on that situation he found himself. I really see no issues on that, since it could be benefical for him, however, he should just have been more careful with the amount of money he was going to risk. To risk the whole month's savings is never a viable alternative.Maybe he should have just allocated a minor budget for gambling activity, like 10% of the savings.
