I can't take life anymore. I've come close to killing myself twice, putting myself in the hospital twice and this time I'm just done. I'm a degenerate gambler. I asked Nitrogen to IP ban me and they said they did but they didn't. I didn't change IPs or use anything different and today I went to Nitrogen and was fooling around with the prop bets. I didn't realize my deposit of 1.16 BTC had come in and I placed a bet that will never hit on some nobody for my full balance. I didn't mean to do this. I'm now broke and can't do this anymore. Ive failed everyone in my life, my parents know of my problem and don't want anythingto do with me. I can't do this anymore. I just want to die and im going to go thru with it tonight. Nitrogen wont help, nobody will. It was an accident and my life savings are gone. I wish they would have banned me like they said they did.
https://nitrogensports.eu/betslip/ed5fef4dnhFV0k4SVZ6eHVIckZHeGp5TUEwZz09/r/48971/Im going to write a letter to my parents and my girlfriend and explain to them what happened. I dont want to live anymore, my problem will never get better. Ill always be a disappointment to everyone. Truly. I dont deserve to live anymore and thus im going to take my whole prescription of sleeping pills once I write the letters and tell everyone goodbye.
it has been a great experience getting to know all you people in bitcoin and i wish you the best. I hope you all never fall down the path of gambling that i did.
Goodbye.
What kind of sleeping pills are those? Your chances of taking your life with almost any of those that are being prescribed nowadays are very very slim. Please do not try that, or any better method either.
Sorry to hear that. But spending your savings isn't that bad, it wasn't even credit. Some people don't have money at all. You can start a new life and get someone to take care of your money if you are unable to.
Good luck.
Edit: you really lost only 1 bitcoin or what? You could make that back by selling that prescription on Silk Road instead.
I've lost $2500+ to Nitrogen. I've asked them multiple times to ban me, everytime they said they did but they didn't. I have never changed any IP or anything so I don't know why they claim they have banned me.
I don't fucking care. I have a
butcher knife I'll use and slit my throat. Im just done with this. I'm tired of crying and life in general.
Sounds painful. Why not just go skydiving and not open your parachute or something? You'd probably have a nice funeral that way too.
Lol i just laugh at this.
Seriously your loosing is not big compare to others.. specially me.. i started in gambling with no money, i only have a good reputation in all my relatives.. they fully trust me... but when i started to get addicted in gambling, my life starts to change.. i learn to borrow money to my friends.. ofcourse they will let me borrow because they me personaly.. but they didnt know that i will use it in gambling.. i live in 3rd world country where my salary is $250 per month including deductions.. my loosing starts.. so i borrow again to other friends.. and other friends again and so on... hoping that i will win and pay all of them.. and i didnt notice that i borrowed almost $5000.. now my friends contacting me and asking theire money.. but i dont have money to pay... and my last option is to borrow to my relatives which is i know that they will let me borrow.. so i ask one by one and they give me money until i have $2000 cash onhand.. and guess what i did.. i gamble the money... and at first i win.. but my focus is to win big so that i can pay them all... but it ended 0 balance.. not my life turn misserable.. my mother is disable and i dont have friends and relatives that trust me.. now i live in a place that new people that no one know me.. because my friends looking for me.. one day i did a fraud thing and i got $4500 cash on hand.. and i visit my mother in hospital.. and since i get bored and i have money on hand i tell my self ill to casino play $1 bet before i go home and earn extra box is enough.. now betting starts.. and i started getting greedy.. and believe it or not.. i won $2200 in 30minutes... and i said to my self this will be my last bet $100 and if i win ill go home.. but but i loose. By the way i play bacarrat so i double again betting in banker for $200 and i lost again, and 400 800 1600 and guess what..... i lost everything including my money i only have $50 left in my pocket... at that point i cant even stand in my chair.. hoping and convincing my self that i was onky dreaming that j have $5000 on hand and instead to pay some of my friends and help my mother in hospital i gambled everything...... that was the worst and bad decission that i made.. until now at this point.. still i dont have money to pay them.. so i stop gambling slowly..
My point here is that we only have one life.. it also happens to me that i will kill my self or commit suicide but u realize.. MANY PEOPLE LIVE WITHOUT MONEY. So your not alone. Life us beautiful.
Total lost that i have since october 2013 is around $100,000 but i stopped doing bad things and im happy for what i have right now
Sorry if my english is bad or grammar.
Thanks