I like this too in the past.
But the thing here is that despite me started to gamble to have fun, there are those sleepless nights too where I hoped I did not do this, where I hoped I did not do that, something like that. Usually, it includes money but some of them are because of my friend getting upset since I always gamble with my friends in the past.
Some people play to pass the time or do experiments. I know winning is the ultimate end goal here but...
I remember the first time I heard about "martingale". I was in high school and the idea sounded very magical to me. All I had to do was doubling my bets till I win. I thought It was impossible to lose like that. -Silly me.

Of course in time I understood why it doesn't work but you know, I tried it anyway, like millions of people will do it too.