After some deep breaths and sleep, I realized my situation can be somewhere between "infinitely upward" or "infinitely downward" and I'm not really in that terrible of a position. Things'll be tight - I can't buy anymore houses soon, but I'm not at risk of declaring bankruptcy or anything. Effectively having a short position on Bitcoin in the tens of thousands makes me pretty damn nervous, but as long as there aren't any major rallies, I should be fine. It'd be excellent to convert the debt to USD, but nobody seems interested.
I won't lie, though -- there's a fair chance I'm going to be missing some payments between now and when I can buy BDK.BND out 100%, and I sure am going to be taking advantage of panic sellers at the expense of the robotic certainty in my actions I originally sought to foster with BDK.BND. Basically - stick it out with me, and you'll get everything I promise, or dump it into my upcoming discounted bidwalls, and I'll consider it charity. And.... there's obviously a big conflict of interest affecting the tone of my messages (which is why I'd say my writings've looked "bipolar" lately), which I'd call "soft deceit." I'm not really sure what to do about that beside trying to disclose as much, factually, as I can - my current outlook, time schedule to buy back the remaining bonds in one shot, default risk, etc. If I paint a bleak outlook, I'm scamming people by manipulating bond-holders to sell to me at a discount. If I paint a rosy outlook, I'm scamming people by claiming I'm not a scammer (which appears to be more than enough evidence for a conviction in online forums).
For now, I'm taking care of my CD-holders, since they're on fixed-term plans. I have a resume in at the "charity job" I mentioned in another thread requesting a USD loan (I originally didn't want my dad to help me for personal reasons, but sucked it up and realized I was being an asshole). If that falls through, I'll take something part-time, and enjoy collecting a hefty "Earned Income Tax Credit" from the USG. Employment is not essential for buying out BDK.BND bondholders, but it'll certainly accelerate the process, and ideally, remove that feeling of dread which's been pressing hard on my chest.
Just so it's totally clear, if you want to know what to expect and nothing else, just read this: Nothing has fundamentally changed with BDK.BND. Expect weekly dividends. Expect an eventual buyout @ the contractual rate by mid-2013. (Or look into my tone and wonder if I'm a scammer, dump bonds way below face value, and dislike me for the rest of your time -- I don't plan on sticking around in a significant way after I close the accounts, so I don't much give a damn about my reputation, anymore.
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