From 2013, I am in the same ship as you.
During this period, I hodled hard my little stash of btc, and no shitstorm (and i saw many) was able to scare me.
During the fork I dumped bch future for 0.1 or so, and I was happy with that. When it pumped to 0.25 I was again not scared, I feelled like I was a veteran and was sad for all newbies buying it, because I was thinking that bch was a shilling operation for segwi2x and nothing more.
Now, I am fucking scared.
Please comfort me
Your looking for comfort but honestly Roger Ver represents a real threat to Bitcoin. Even if he fails this month. He will probably be back later. He is intelligent, wealthy and very persistent.