The amount of loss is quite large (in my opinion).
In making a trade, do you do the analysis first?
If you did the analysis first, what analysis did you use? (fundamental analysis or technical analysis or both?)
The loss experienced by the OP is indeed very large, we must learn from these mistakes. It is clear from the experience recounted by the OP,
he does not control his emotions when trading. He was trading obsessed with wanting to make big profits immediately and greed overtook him.
So when OP was trading Forex in 2016 he managed to make $5k profit in 15 days, but because of greed he lost all of his profits. After that decide
on crypto trading without first learning about the crypto world. It's clear that trading crypto without knowledge, we will definitely experience losses.
Then entering 2021 the OP returned to trading crypto because the market was bullish, but the OP made the same mistake, he returned greedy
when trading futures by using borrowed money from the bank. In the end, his life fell apart and had to bear huge debts. We should learn from
the OP's mistakes, because the experience of others can be useful for those of us who have not experienced it.