I think this will be my last message to the world, I am sorry
First of all and most important, life is short but you still have a life to live so don't do stupid things. Be strong!
I don't know why am I am posting this here but I wanted someone to talk to. Since I can't talk about this to my family or friends because I am ashamed of myself. I am lazy piece of garbage who tried to make money the easy way, and get rich quick trading. I have failed my family and myself, I deserve everything that happened and will happen to me. It's time to take accountability for my actions.
Second, I am happy to see eventually you found a place to share your emotional thinking at this hardest time in your life.
Third, I am sorry for your loss but loss is done and you can not revert it so you must accept it and keep moving toward the future. Sit back, take deep breath and spend a few days or weeks to do things unrelated to Bitcoin and cryptocurrency market. Just don't do stupid things!
By spending cooling down time, you will have better view on what you have done, what are your mistakes and can improve yourself.
My advice, not financial advice, for you
- You traded but are not good with trading. So don't trade again!
- Spending time to digest this fiasco and later, if you still want to be in this market, change to invest in Bitcoin. Bitcoin only, don't invest in altcoins which have bigger risk for you to lose your capital.
- If you decide to invest, apply Dollar Cost Averaging https://dcabtc.com/
- Important to store your bitcoin in non custodial wallet.