Topic: is gambling fix your life? or wreck your life? - page 160. (Read 164189 times)
In a gamble section you must be patient. If you are not be patient you can loose everything because of your patientless.
one day gambling fix your life, one day it wreck your life, the majority of the time the second wins.
On the long run you'll lose all, don't gamble what you can't afford to lose
On the long run you'll lose all, don't gamble what you can't afford to lose
any kids out there read this (bad grammar and all)...
Around early 2000 i found gambling online. At first i would just buy a giftcard and play at some online casino and if i lost it, that was that for awhile. Well... before i realized it i became a full blown addict. Our family had a shared bank account and it was normal for me to make it go in the negative. I hurt my family very badly. I always told myself i was trying to win money for the family to try and justify it. See, my mother was bed-ridden as she was always very sick so i wanted to buy her nice things so she would have something to do. however, again, that was trying to justify it.
Years went on and i never stopped. I put so much extra stress on my mother. She was already dealing with my "father" who was very mentally abusive. A real scumbag he was. I kept telling my mother i would quit and she believed me most of the time. She would always stick up for me when money went missing as when that happened my father had a real, real mean streak. She would take all the abuse for me, always.
About 1.5 years ago my mother was getting worse. She was in the hospital for about 5 months once. When she came back one of the first things i said to her was "can you fill out this id verification form for me, it's for a sportsbook as i have enough to cash out, i'm working on getting that kindle you wanted". Things were back to normal for those 3 days she was home. i was back to betting sports and ignoring everyone else. Well, on a Saturday morning i went down stairs to see if she needed anything and asking her to cover up some of my recent withdraws i took out of the bank. It was always about me, no one else. In a blink of an eye she told me she could not breathe and she passed away. Those were my last words to my mother, asking her to hide my spending. I called 911 and they revived her but her brain was dead. We had to pull the plug 11 days later. She was only 60.
Gambling ruined my life. I'm almost 40. I now live with my brother. I never will have a family of my own as i would do the same thing to my family. I still gamble. I play for literally pennies of bitcoin and i can not even afford that. I go days without eating so i have money to gamble with. No one talks to me in real life as why would they? i'm beyond a loser and i bet they think i would ask for money. I never stole or scammed etc. from once friends or online. No, i did something worse; i stole from my family. For the last very painful years of my mothers life she lived poor because of me.
I know this is hard to read due to grammar, sorry. Also, this is the internet so i expect to be judged or laughed at. That's fine. I made this post as on bitcoin talk there are a lot of naive kids. Maybe if some bother to read this it will maybe stop them from taken the path i had chosen.
That's it.
Around early 2000 i found gambling online. At first i would just buy a giftcard and play at some online casino and if i lost it, that was that for awhile. Well... before i realized it i became a full blown addict. Our family had a shared bank account and it was normal for me to make it go in the negative. I hurt my family very badly. I always told myself i was trying to win money for the family to try and justify it. See, my mother was bed-ridden as she was always very sick so i wanted to buy her nice things so she would have something to do. however, again, that was trying to justify it.
Years went on and i never stopped. I put so much extra stress on my mother. She was already dealing with my "father" who was very mentally abusive. A real scumbag he was. I kept telling my mother i would quit and she believed me most of the time. She would always stick up for me when money went missing as when that happened my father had a real, real mean streak. She would take all the abuse for me, always.
About 1.5 years ago my mother was getting worse. She was in the hospital for about 5 months once. When she came back one of the first things i said to her was "can you fill out this id verification form for me, it's for a sportsbook as i have enough to cash out, i'm working on getting that kindle you wanted". Things were back to normal for those 3 days she was home. i was back to betting sports and ignoring everyone else. Well, on a Saturday morning i went down stairs to see if she needed anything and asking her to cover up some of my recent withdraws i took out of the bank. It was always about me, no one else. In a blink of an eye she told me she could not breathe and she passed away. Those were my last words to my mother, asking her to hide my spending. I called 911 and they revived her but her brain was dead. We had to pull the plug 11 days later. She was only 60.
Gambling ruined my life. I'm almost 40. I now live with my brother. I never will have a family of my own as i would do the same thing to my family. I still gamble. I play for literally pennies of bitcoin and i can not even afford that. I go days without eating so i have money to gamble with. No one talks to me in real life as why would they? i'm beyond a loser and i bet they think i would ask for money. I never stole or scammed etc. from once friends or online. No, i did something worse; i stole from my family. For the last very painful years of my mothers life she lived poor because of me.
I know this is hard to read due to grammar, sorry. Also, this is the internet so i expect to be judged or laughed at. That's fine. I made this post as on bitcoin talk there are a lot of naive kids. Maybe if some bother to read this it will maybe stop them from taken the path i had chosen.
That's it.
Actually for me i was controlled myself in gambling. Even some time it does says me to do it again because i won like x5 times for my initial deposit. But after that profit i didn't play it again, i just cashed out. Its now like 2 yrs or something i stopped gambling. I know it never settle you down..lose..win..lose..it goes this way. Once you get addicted to it, It will ruin your life. Your mind will be always into it. You couldn't able to concentrate on anything. I was thinking on getting into it again. But from reading your story never again
..Sorry for your losses. Well, if people are stupid to play gambling, I'd to say two thing:
- Always table wins.
- No matter the amount of money or how much you earned, you will always but always lose more money than you earned.
The problem is not the table always win, but the greediness that always drive you when you playing. No matter how many we have won and how much we earn, if you cant drive your desire to get more, surely you will lose all.- Always table wins.
- No matter the amount of money or how much you earned, you will always but always lose more money than you earned.
I have seen this first hand. Greed is a regrettable thing when you lose a lot.
People always want more and more, that´s the main flaw, it never stops.
Well, if people are stupid to play gambling, I'd to say two thing:
- Always table wins.
- No matter the amount of money or how much you earned, you will always but always lose more money than you earned.
The problem is not the table always win, but the greediness that always drive you when you playing. No matter how many we have won and how much we earn, if you cant drive your desire to get more, surely you will lose all.- Always table wins.
- No matter the amount of money or how much you earned, you will always but always lose more money than you earned.
I have seen this first hand. Greed is a regrettable thing when you lose a lot.
thanks micky and ndnhc. i'm not ready to quit yet. i wish i was but i'm not. first i have to learn to cope without my mother i think. here's an interesting one i think about super natural life.
the day i came home from stopping my mothers life support i was playing at an offshore sports book (5 dimes). i never ever had luck at their casino. played there for years. well, i played random slot games and won both of their jackpots. one was for 800 and the other about 700. they both hit on around the first 10 spins. couple days more after that i was winning 200 at least every session. during those days i went down stairs into my mothers room and i was crying and i joke you not i heard her say "oh, honey"
after a week my luck ran out and i lost it all. have not heard my mothers voice sense. i was doing some research and people say those who have passed linger on for a short time and leave. tying this into casino wins is sick i know but i truly think she did that. i really didn't care i won as i was too busy in denial and crying. this has convinced me i will see her again and that's nice. if no one could tell i was a mommas boy haha.. well, i messed this up as i can not write well.
i'm going to take a break from this topic. thank you all for the compassion. i thought the internet killed it.
Sorry for hear that the day i came home from stopping my mothers life support i was playing at an offshore sports book (5 dimes). i never ever had luck at their casino. played there for years. well, i played random slot games and won both of their jackpots. one was for 800 and the other about 700. they both hit on around the first 10 spins. couple days more after that i was winning 200 at least every session. during those days i went down stairs into my mothers room and i was crying and i joke you not i heard her say "oh, honey"
after a week my luck ran out and i lost it all. have not heard my mothers voice sense. i was doing some research and people say those who have passed linger on for a short time and leave. tying this into casino wins is sick i know but i truly think she did that. i really didn't care i won as i was too busy in denial and crying. this has convinced me i will see her again and that's nice. if no one could tell i was a mommas boy haha.. well, i messed this up as i can not write well.
i'm going to take a break from this topic. thank you all for the compassion. i thought the internet killed it.
I think you posted your life story to explain us that gambling is not good at all to get money. Then you should change your gambling habit with your own words.
Anyway, good luck redditisforhippies
Wish you get the best in your life, there is still time for you to change. 
any kids out there read this (bad grammar and all)...
Around early 2000 i found gambling online. At first i would just buy a giftcard and play at some online casino and if i lost it, that was that for awhile. Well... before i realized it i became a full blown addict. Our family had a shared bank account and it was normal for me to make it go in the negative. I hurt my family very badly. I always told myself i was trying to win money for the family to try and justify it. See, my mother was bed-ridden as she was always very sick so i wanted to buy her nice things so she would have something to do. however, again, that was trying to justify it.
Years went on and i never stopped. I put so much extra stress on my mother. She was already dealing with my "father" who was very mentally abusive. A real scumbag he was. I kept telling my mother i would quit and she believed me most of the time. She would always stick up for me when money went missing as when that happened my father had a real, real mean streak. She would take all the abuse for me, always.
About 1.5 years ago my mother was getting worse. She was in the hospital for about 5 months once. When she came back one of the first things i said to her was "can you fill out this id verification form for me, it's for a sportsbook as i have enough to cash out, i'm working on getting that kindle you wanted". Things were back to normal for those 3 days she was home. i was back to betting sports and ignoring everyone else. Well, on a Saturday morning i went down stairs to see if she needed anything and asking her to cover up some of my recent withdraws i took out of the bank. It was always about me, no one else. In a blink of an eye she told me she could not breathe and she passed away. Those were my last words to my mother, asking her to hide my spending. I called 911 and they revived her but her brain was dead. We had to pull the plug 11 days later. She was only 60.
Gambling ruined my life. I'm almost 40. I now live with my brother. I never will have a family of my own as i would do the same thing to my family. I still gamble. I play for literally pennies of bitcoin and i can not even afford that. I go days without eating so i have money to gamble with. No one talks to me in real life as why would they? i'm beyond a loser and i bet they think i would ask for money. I never stole or scammed etc. from once friends or online. No, i did something worse; i stole from my family. For the last very painful years of my mothers life she lived poor because of me.
I know this is hard to read due to grammar, sorry. Also, this is the internet so i expect to be judged or laughed at. That's fine. I made this post as on bitcoin talk there are a lot of naive kids. Maybe if some bother to read this it will maybe stop them from taken the path i had chosen.
That's it.
Woww it was sad story, the kids like me should read stories like this. Around early 2000 i found gambling online. At first i would just buy a giftcard and play at some online casino and if i lost it, that was that for awhile. Well... before i realized it i became a full blown addict. Our family had a shared bank account and it was normal for me to make it go in the negative. I hurt my family very badly. I always told myself i was trying to win money for the family to try and justify it. See, my mother was bed-ridden as she was always very sick so i wanted to buy her nice things so she would have something to do. however, again, that was trying to justify it.
Years went on and i never stopped. I put so much extra stress on my mother. She was already dealing with my "father" who was very mentally abusive. A real scumbag he was. I kept telling my mother i would quit and she believed me most of the time. She would always stick up for me when money went missing as when that happened my father had a real, real mean streak. She would take all the abuse for me, always.
About 1.5 years ago my mother was getting worse. She was in the hospital for about 5 months once. When she came back one of the first things i said to her was "can you fill out this id verification form for me, it's for a sportsbook as i have enough to cash out, i'm working on getting that kindle you wanted". Things were back to normal for those 3 days she was home. i was back to betting sports and ignoring everyone else. Well, on a Saturday morning i went down stairs to see if she needed anything and asking her to cover up some of my recent withdraws i took out of the bank. It was always about me, no one else. In a blink of an eye she told me she could not breathe and she passed away. Those were my last words to my mother, asking her to hide my spending. I called 911 and they revived her but her brain was dead. We had to pull the plug 11 days later. She was only 60.
Gambling ruined my life. I'm almost 40. I now live with my brother. I never will have a family of my own as i would do the same thing to my family. I still gamble. I play for literally pennies of bitcoin and i can not even afford that. I go days without eating so i have money to gamble with. No one talks to me in real life as why would they? i'm beyond a loser and i bet they think i would ask for money. I never stole or scammed etc. from once friends or online. No, i did something worse; i stole from my family. For the last very painful years of my mothers life she lived poor because of me.
I know this is hard to read due to grammar, sorry. Also, this is the internet so i expect to be judged or laughed at. That's fine. I made this post as on bitcoin talk there are a lot of naive kids. Maybe if some bother to read this it will maybe stop them from taken the path i had chosen.
That's it.
I'm so sorry on what happened to you, you just need to take a rest from gambling, to get fresh spirit back.
thanks micky and ndnhc. i'm not ready to quit yet. i wish i was but i'm not. first i have to learn to cope without my mother i think. here's an interesting one i think about super natural life.
the day i came home from stopping my mothers life support i was playing at an offshore sports book (5 dimes). i never ever had luck at their casino. played there for years. well, i played random slot games and won both of their jackpots. one was for 800 and the other about 700. they both hit on around the first 10 spins. couple days more after that i was winning 200 at least every session. during those days i went down stairs into my mothers room and i was crying and i joke you not i heard her say "oh, honey"
after a week my luck ran out and i lost it all. have not heard my mothers voice sense. i was doing some research and people say those who have passed linger on for a short time and leave. tying this into casino wins is sick i know but i truly think she did that. i really didn't care i won as i was too busy in denial and crying. this has convinced me i will see her again and that's nice. if no one could tell i was a mommas boy haha.. well, i messed this up as i can not write well.
i'm going to take a break from this topic. thank you all for the compassion. i thought the internet killed it.
the day i came home from stopping my mothers life support i was playing at an offshore sports book (5 dimes). i never ever had luck at their casino. played there for years. well, i played random slot games and won both of their jackpots. one was for 800 and the other about 700. they both hit on around the first 10 spins. couple days more after that i was winning 200 at least every session. during those days i went down stairs into my mothers room and i was crying and i joke you not i heard her say "oh, honey"
after a week my luck ran out and i lost it all. have not heard my mothers voice sense. i was doing some research and people say those who have passed linger on for a short time and leave. tying this into casino wins is sick i know but i truly think she did that. i really didn't care i won as i was too busy in denial and crying. this has convinced me i will see her again and that's nice. if no one could tell i was a mommas boy haha.. well, i messed this up as i can not write well.
i'm going to take a break from this topic. thank you all for the compassion. i thought the internet killed it.
p.s. i still gamble as my life is pretty much done. i bet for pennies but it gives me that rush still. i just got to stop spending food money on gambling. gambling also helps me not think of my mother every second. it's a clusterfuck that makes little sense for sure haha
Justification?
Get over it. Quit internet.
There are better things to spend on than this. Get married?
Let your wife/partner/spouse(or someone else)* handle the finances?
*assuming that he/she is well.. a little conservative and loves to save.
Most importantly, you are not supposed to repeat mistakes. Learn from it, mate, and get over it.
If you have good friends in RL, talk with them. It usually helps. If you don't, get some. And, srsly, quit internet completely (esp. gambling) and concentrate on RL for some period. For now, 1 month.
thanks Dannie, fox and ndnhc. a very big thanks for your advice. again, i have giving up for now but who knows in the future. it means a lot to know there is good people out there. i hope you all find what you are looking for in life.
You are a member in the forum, just join some sig campaign to make money by posting, here is a list of sig campaign, choose highest pay rate one, https://bitcointalksearch.org/topic/overview-of-bitcointalk-signature-ad-campaigns-last-update-01-jan-23-615953
Just gamble using no deposit bonus, I do this
and sometimes I could cash out if i completed the rollover, I cashed out about 2btc from one casino which offered no deposit bonus. I seldom deposit money to gambling sites, I only deposit money to sportsbook, which is better than random betting like dice, card games.thanks for the info. no offence, ok? i avoid those sig deals as i post all over the forum. i do not want someone seeing it and they start an addiction. but thank you. i'm happy with what i have for gambling right now and i learned how to get my fix without going broke as much. the no deposit bonus, you have a link to one? thanks
p.s. i have been reading the lending section here... my goodness some of these people. i bring this up as everyone seems to be cynical here for good reason. so, throwing this out here... i do not want bitcoins from any one. i will not make my address public. i do not want a thing, i manage to get by. i was just sharing my story and hopefully it might help someone before they go off the deep end.
Thank you for sharing your story, it will help people who are just starting their lives from falling into the same trap you did. There is always hope, you can still come out of your situation too. You just need some good counseling. Fare well my friend.
thanks Dannie, fox and ndnhc. a very big thanks for your advice. again, i have giving up for now but who knows in the future. it means a lot to know there is good people out there. i hope you all find what you are looking for in life.
You are a member in the forum, just join some sig campaign to make money by posting, here is a list of sig campaign, choose highest pay rate one, https://bitcointalksearch.org/topic/overview-of-bitcointalk-signature-ad-campaigns-last-update-01-jan-23-615953
Just gamble using no deposit bonus, I do this
and sometimes I could cash out if i completed the rollover, I cashed out about 2btc from one casino which offered no deposit bonus. I seldom deposit money to gambling sites, I only deposit money to sportsbook, which is better than random betting like dice, card games.thanks for the info. no offence, ok? i avoid those sig deals as i post all over the forum. i do not want someone seeing it and they start an addiction. but thank you. i'm happy with what i have for gambling right now and i learned how to get my fix without going broke as much. the no deposit bonus, you have a link to one? thanks
p.s. i have been reading the lending section here... my goodness some of these people. i bring this up as everyone seems to be cynical here for good reason. so, throwing this out here... i do not want bitcoins from any one. i will not make my address public. i do not want a thing, i manage to get by. i was just sharing my story and hopefully it might help someone before they go off the deep end.
thanks Dannie, fox and ndnhc. a very big thanks for your advice. again, i have giving up for now but who knows in the future. it means a lot to know there is good people out there. i hope you all find what you are looking for in life.
You are a member in the forum, just join some sig campaign to make money by posting, here is a list of sig campaign, choose highest pay rate one, https://bitcointalksearch.org/topic/overview-of-bitcointalk-signature-ad-campaigns-last-update-01-jan-23-615953
Just gamble using no deposit bonus, I do this
and sometimes I could cash out if i completed the rollover, I cashed out about 2btc from one casino which offered no deposit bonus. I seldom deposit money to gambling sites, I only deposit money to sportsbook, which is better than random betting like dice, card games. p.s. i still gamble as my life is pretty much done. i bet for pennies but it gives me that rush still. i just got to stop spending food money on gambling. gambling also helps me not think of my mother every second. it's a clusterfuck that makes little sense for sure haha
Justification?
Get over it. Quit internet.
There are better things to spend on than this. Get married?
thanks Dannie, fox and ndnhc. a very big thanks for your advice. again, i have giving up for now but who knows in the future. it means a lot to know there is good people out there. i hope you all find what you are looking for in life.
agree or not, many people are falling into poverty because of gambling :O
p.s. i still gamble as my life is pretty much done. i bet for pennies but it gives me that rush still. i just got to stop spending food money on gambling. gambling also helps me not think of my mother every second. it's a clusterfuck that makes little sense for sure haha
Justification?
Get over it. Quit internet.
There are better things to spend on than this. Get married?
fox, i had a government job and got paid for taking care of her. i had that job 15 or so years till she passed. i would of taken care of her even without getting paid. i loved her very, very much even if i did a lot of bad things to her. before i got the government job i had normal jobs. so 15 years of really no references from that job. in short: it's been hard finding work after she passed. i could get a job taking care of bed-ridden people as that is my last experience but i only did that job and put my life on hold for her. looking back, i bet if i did not take that jpb and moved out i bet she would still be alive today as again, i took years off her life from the stress i caused.
really, i know this reads like a sob story and in a way it is. however, i'm just trying to make a point on how quickly your life can turn into pure hell if you have a gambling problem. thanks for reading and your support.
p.s. i still gamble as my life is pretty much done. i bet for pennies but it gives me that rush still. i just got to stop spending food money on gambling. gambling also helps me not think of my mother every second. it's a clusterfuck that makes little sense for sure haha
really, i know this reads like a sob story and in a way it is. however, i'm just trying to make a point on how quickly your life can turn into pure hell if you have a gambling problem. thanks for reading and your support.
p.s. i still gamble as my life is pretty much done. i bet for pennies but it gives me that rush still. i just got to stop spending food money on gambling. gambling also helps me not think of my mother every second. it's a clusterfuck that makes little sense for sure haha
any kids out there read this (bad grammar and all)...
Around early 2000 i found gambling online. At first i would just buy a giftcard and play at some online casino and if i lost it, that was that for awhile. Well... before i realized it i became a full blown addict. Our family had a shared bank account and it was normal for me to make it go in the negative. I hurt my family very badly. I always told myself i was trying to win money for the family to try and justify it. See, my mother was bed-ridden as she was always very sick so i wanted to buy her nice things so she would have something to do. however, again, that was trying to justify it.
Years went on and i never stopped. I put so much extra stress on my mother. She was already dealing with my "father" who was very mentally abusive. A real scumbag he was. I kept telling my mother i would quit and she believed me most of the time. She would always stick up for me when money went missing as when that happened my father had a real, real mean streak. She would take all the abuse for me, always.
About 1.5 years ago my mother was getting worse. She was in the hospital for about 5 months once. When she came back one of the first things i said to her was "can you fill out this id verification form for me, it's for a sportsbook as i have enough to cash out, i'm working on getting that kindle you wanted". Things were back to normal for those 3 days she was home. i was back to betting sports and ignoring everyone else. Well, on a Saturday morning i went down stairs to see if she needed anything and asking her to cover up some of my recent withdraws i took out of the bank. It was always about me, no one else. In a blink of an eye she told me she could not breathe and she passed away. Those were my last words to my mother, asking her to hide my spending. I called 911 and they revived her but her brain was dead. We had to pull the plug 11 days later. She was only 60.
Gambling ruined my life. I'm almost 40. I now live with my brother. I never will have a family of my own as i would do the same thing to my family. I still gamble. I play for literally pennies of bitcoin and i can not even afford that. I go days without eating so i have money to gamble with. No one talks to me in real life as why would they? i'm beyond a loser and i bet they think i would ask for money. I never stole or scammed etc. from once friends or online. No, i did something worse; i stole from my family. For the last very painful years of my mothers life she lived poor because of me.
I know this is hard to read due to grammar, sorry. Also, this is the internet so i expect to be judged or laughed at. That's fine. I made this post as on bitcoin talk there are a lot of naive kids. Maybe if some bother to read this it will maybe stop them from taken the path i had chosen.
That's it.
Around early 2000 i found gambling online. At first i would just buy a giftcard and play at some online casino and if i lost it, that was that for awhile. Well... before i realized it i became a full blown addict. Our family had a shared bank account and it was normal for me to make it go in the negative. I hurt my family very badly. I always told myself i was trying to win money for the family to try and justify it. See, my mother was bed-ridden as she was always very sick so i wanted to buy her nice things so she would have something to do. however, again, that was trying to justify it.
Years went on and i never stopped. I put so much extra stress on my mother. She was already dealing with my "father" who was very mentally abusive. A real scumbag he was. I kept telling my mother i would quit and she believed me most of the time. She would always stick up for me when money went missing as when that happened my father had a real, real mean streak. She would take all the abuse for me, always.
About 1.5 years ago my mother was getting worse. She was in the hospital for about 5 months once. When she came back one of the first things i said to her was "can you fill out this id verification form for me, it's for a sportsbook as i have enough to cash out, i'm working on getting that kindle you wanted". Things were back to normal for those 3 days she was home. i was back to betting sports and ignoring everyone else. Well, on a Saturday morning i went down stairs to see if she needed anything and asking her to cover up some of my recent withdraws i took out of the bank. It was always about me, no one else. In a blink of an eye she told me she could not breathe and she passed away. Those were my last words to my mother, asking her to hide my spending. I called 911 and they revived her but her brain was dead. We had to pull the plug 11 days later. She was only 60.
Gambling ruined my life. I'm almost 40. I now live with my brother. I never will have a family of my own as i would do the same thing to my family. I still gamble. I play for literally pennies of bitcoin and i can not even afford that. I go days without eating so i have money to gamble with. No one talks to me in real life as why would they? i'm beyond a loser and i bet they think i would ask for money. I never stole or scammed etc. from once friends or online. No, i did something worse; i stole from my family. For the last very painful years of my mothers life she lived poor because of me.
I know this is hard to read due to grammar, sorry. Also, this is the internet so i expect to be judged or laughed at. That's fine. I made this post as on bitcoin talk there are a lot of naive kids. Maybe if some bother to read this it will maybe stop them from taken the path i had chosen.
That's it.
You need counselling. Trust me, it actually helps.
Don't take it in the other sense as most do, it is just that you might need a gentle push to get over things, and addiction, be confident and move on.
Google it.
Getting addicted to anything is bad. For me, it is just fun. To spend my free time. I never bought a satoshi, so I am all good.
Quit internet for a month. Can you do it?
From 12th August to 12th September. No nothing.
And thank you for posting it here.
Actually it's wreck my life, i'm losing so many bitcoins and real money. And now i can't continue my college because my money all gone. I'm trying to stop gambling but it's really so hard, always someday i gambling when i promise myself to not gambling anymore. 
Sorry about your situation, the sooner you accept you have a gambling problem, the easier it will be to fight the addiction. Not sure where you are from, but you can find more information on here: http://www.gamblersanonymous.org/ga/
Maybe you can locate a group nearby that can help you. The first step is admitting you have a gambling problem, which you pretty much did with your post. Now it is time to take action. Good Luck!
Yeah you right. When i wanna stop gambling there's must be something make me wanna bet again. But from now i promise myself will not betting again using my money. I mean i can keep betting with free bitcoin like from giveaway or something. It's really hard for me to stop gambling.
any kids out there read this (bad grammar and all)...
Around early 2000 i found gambling online. At first i would just buy a giftcard and play at some online casino and if i lost it, that was that for awhile. Well... before i realized it i became a full blown addict. Our family had a shared bank account and it was normal for me to make it go in the negative. I hurt my family very badly. I always told myself i was trying to win money for the family to try and justify it. See, my mother was bed-ridden as she was always very sick so i wanted to buy her nice things so she would have something to do. however, again, that was trying to justify it.
Years went on and i never stopped. I put so much extra stress on my mother. She was already dealing with my "father" who was very mentally abusive. A real scumbag he was. I kept telling my mother i would quit and she believed me most of the time. She would always stick up for me when money went missing as when that happened my father had a real, real mean streak. She would take all the abuse for me, always.
About 1.5 years ago my mother was getting worse. She was in the hospital for about 5 months once. When she came back one of the first things i said to her was "can you fill out this id verification form for me, it's for a sportsbook as i have enough to cash out, i'm working on getting that kindle you wanted". Things were back to normal for those 3 days she was home. i was back to betting sports and ignoring everyone else. Well, on a Saturday morning i went down stairs to see if she needed anything and asking her to cover up some of my recent withdraws i took out of the bank. It was always about me, no one else. In a blink of an eye she told me she could not breathe and she passed away. Those were my last words to my mother, asking her to hide my spending. I called 911 and they revived her but her brain was dead. We had to pull the plug 11 days later. She was only 60.
Gambling ruined my life. I'm almost 40. I now live with my brother. I never will have a family of my own as i would do the same thing to my family. I still gamble. I play for literally pennies of bitcoin and i can not even afford that. I go days without eating so i have money to gamble with. No one talks to me in real life as why would they? i'm beyond a loser and i bet they think i would ask for money. I never stole or scammed etc. from once friends or online. No, i did something worse; i stole from my family. For the last very painful years of my mothers life she lived poor because of me.
I know this is hard to read due to grammar, sorry. Also, this is the internet so i expect to be judged or laughed at. That's fine. I made this post as on bitcoin talk there are a lot of naive kids. Maybe if some bother to read this it will maybe stop them from taken the path i had chosen.
That's it.
Around early 2000 i found gambling online. At first i would just buy a giftcard and play at some online casino and if i lost it, that was that for awhile. Well... before i realized it i became a full blown addict. Our family had a shared bank account and it was normal for me to make it go in the negative. I hurt my family very badly. I always told myself i was trying to win money for the family to try and justify it. See, my mother was bed-ridden as she was always very sick so i wanted to buy her nice things so she would have something to do. however, again, that was trying to justify it.
Years went on and i never stopped. I put so much extra stress on my mother. She was already dealing with my "father" who was very mentally abusive. A real scumbag he was. I kept telling my mother i would quit and she believed me most of the time. She would always stick up for me when money went missing as when that happened my father had a real, real mean streak. She would take all the abuse for me, always.
About 1.5 years ago my mother was getting worse. She was in the hospital for about 5 months once. When she came back one of the first things i said to her was "can you fill out this id verification form for me, it's for a sportsbook as i have enough to cash out, i'm working on getting that kindle you wanted". Things were back to normal for those 3 days she was home. i was back to betting sports and ignoring everyone else. Well, on a Saturday morning i went down stairs to see if she needed anything and asking her to cover up some of my recent withdraws i took out of the bank. It was always about me, no one else. In a blink of an eye she told me she could not breathe and she passed away. Those were my last words to my mother, asking her to hide my spending. I called 911 and they revived her but her brain was dead. We had to pull the plug 11 days later. She was only 60.
Gambling ruined my life. I'm almost 40. I now live with my brother. I never will have a family of my own as i would do the same thing to my family. I still gamble. I play for literally pennies of bitcoin and i can not even afford that. I go days without eating so i have money to gamble with. No one talks to me in real life as why would they? i'm beyond a loser and i bet they think i would ask for money. I never stole or scammed etc. from once friends or online. No, i did something worse; i stole from my family. For the last very painful years of my mothers life she lived poor because of me.
I know this is hard to read due to grammar, sorry. Also, this is the internet so i expect to be judged or laughed at. That's fine. I made this post as on bitcoin talk there are a lot of naive kids. Maybe if some bother to read this it will maybe stop them from taken the path i had chosen.
That's it.
I am really sorry to hear that. What's done is done, and you can't change the past, but you can change the future. I see you are still having very bad addiction problem and you also acknowledge it. You should seek help immediately. I don't know where you are located at, but there should be organizations offering some counseling service that could help.
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