I wonder how much have you lost before hitting the jackpot?
At the end of the day and you summed up all the losses you have, the prize haven't covered even the half of your loss. (Basing from my own experience).
It is all about the luck anyway and sometimes, you may have just been gambling very little and then you end up seeing yourself hitting a jackpot. It is tempting and sometimes, when you start considering the amount you could have been playing the lottery with over the years without hitting anything, it would have actually been enough to give yourself a jackpot, but like I said it all depends, for instance, on freebitco.in, I have never bought tickets more than 1000sats weekly which is nothing compared to the profit-loss ratio.
In my entire gambling experience I have never tried winning in a jackpot but I did managed to turn my bitcoin from faucet to 0.05 before and for me that is already a big deal. I wish someday I will experience what you had I will probably be very happy and proud of myself (hahaha).
Well, you are not the only one and so are so many of us who have been trying it out. It would be good feelings anyway as I have always imagined hitting one in my lifetime but if wishes were horses, even beggars would ride. There is really nothing to hope for in it anyway, it is how it has always been, a game of chance and nothing would change that. If one day, I ended up hitting it anyway, I can imagine how sweet it would be like.