I'm just gonna write a story because I'm stuck and need help.
1 year ago when Bitcoin was trading at 600$ I was looking for online tasks and other stupid things that make you earn hardly 1$ a day.
When I noticed websites that paid in Bitcoin I deciced to do this and later exchange it for "real money".
I thought Bitcoin was like PayPal with an unofficial currency called Bitcoin. But when I decided to look up what Bitcoin actually was I found that I could "generate" Bitcoin. So I tried doing that with my tablet (LOL!!). When I looked up more about it I found out about it's technology and decentralization and got obsessed (At least I realised it instead of being stubborn and be like "nah, Bitcoin is scam. It's not real money"). At the time I was 18 years old and decided to talk about it with my parents to get some money from my own bank account for Bitcoin trading. But my parents blocked my bank account for preventing me doing stupid things with it.
When I tried to convince them and explain them what all of this is about they say it's not "real money" and that it is a "criminal underground world". I know people do drugs with Bitcoin but so do people with FIAT "the real not scam money #sarcasm" so maybe we should get rid of that first right? So I got really annoyed and tried to get a job but I don't have a graduate yet so I was really fucking stuck.
I went to a judge several times to talk about this but he is a close minded idiot as well. finally one year later when I was 19 and Bitcoin was trading at around 3000$ I got a chance with 1000$ to invest. I also wanted to move out of the dictators house before going to school again. I know a lot of trading and I tried it with 10$ back when Bitcoin was trading at 600$ and I was really good with it. So finally 1 year later and after many delays (and yes even the bank was trying to stop me) I started trading and all went really well for a couple of days.
But because 1000$ is not enough money to have enough profit to make a living of it so I can live alone and be free I started to get frustrated because my realistic goals of profit didn't get me enough profit to live on myself.
So I got frustrated and started to take too much risks and didn't follow my own plans and now I lost half of money because of this.
As long as my parents don't give me enough money to trade with it is impossible to have realistic goals and a reliable income.
I started trading around august 1 which also is a bad time because Bitcoin was rising and altcoins keeps falling (BTC price).
So I got into emo trading now. I cannot trade without emotions if I don't have enough money to have realistic goals. I was under too much pressure.
I need more but how? Can't talk with parents since everything will be my "my fault". A lot of frustration and anger had built up past year.
Thanks for reading. Hopefully I won't get too much of "it's your own fault you idiot" and "you are a bad trader" comments