https://transgenderreality.com/2015/06/26/did-sissy-porn-make-me-trans/
You love cum. You want to be a girl. Being girly is what you really want. Admit to yourself that you are a girl and go ahead and do something about it. The world is different now. Being openly sissy is acceptable. The number of sissies globally is amazing and growing all the time. Forget about being a man. Embrace the real you. You are a sissy bimbo cumslut. You know you cannot settle with just one cock. You have to have many partners. You don’t care about the risks. You are addicted. You cannot stop. Cock is your life and like McDonald’s, you’re loving it.
For the men who watch these types of porn videos, “being a girl” is a sexual fetish, and it has nothing to do with actually being female. It is a type of BDSM porn where they get turned on by being forced to do degrading things. And for a great number of men, the most degrading thing of all is being a woman.
It is not uncommon for these men to start to question their gender.
Did sissy porn make me trans or was I trans all a long?, asks a poster to r/asktransgender.
I have always been attracted to men as long as I can remember. In particular, I have always been attracted to black men. After a while, I got bored of gay porn and started watching porn with transgender women in it. I started imagining myself in her position. About 3 years ago, I discovered sissy hypno videos, which in a nutshell are flashing subjective images telling you to wear panties, be girly, suck cock, and even take hormones. I became completely obsessed with these videos. Nothing got me off like these. It got to the point where I started wearing panties and imagining myself as a girl when I would masturbate. I personally think these videos just helped me realize that I am transgender. I never felt comfortable being a man. Before I hit puberty I was super androgynous and always enjoyed spending time with girls more than boys. I have never been able to enjoy sex and I think this is due to me being in the wrong body. I have had sex a handful of times and was not able to become aroused (even though they were studly men).
One month later, after two therapy sessions, the same poster is being advised by their therapist to start hormones. Note the references to suicide, both in therapy sessions, and in conversations with the poster’s mother.
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As transgenderism keeps becoming more mainstream, and more and more places are codifying into law that “identity” and not biological sex is supposed to be the determining factor for the use of sex-segregated facilities, it is important to talk about this phenomenon. Why are we not hearing more about these stories in the media? Why, when we hear talk of transgender people, are we always told that this has nothing to do with sexuality, but rather with some abstract identity? Could it be that it is because what we have seen in this post is less palatable to the public? We can assure you that this phenomenon is not at all uncommon. The posts you have seen here are a fraction of what can be found online written by males who after years of heavy porn consumption start to “feel female”.
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https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/comments/1x84yd/hypno_sissy_videos_how_do_i_stop_help/
Here's my story....
It got to the point where male-female vaginal porn wasn't doing for me anymore. About 6 months ago I started came across transgendered porn and I found I kind of liked it. I was fine w/ this for a while and while I was slightly disturbed by my attraction to it I wasn't really concerned it would affect my daily life b/c it was fantasy based. I still liked girls and I loved the idea of sex between man and a woman. As things seem to go with this type of thing, my curiosity only grew for more fetish type porn and few weeks ago and I started watching crossdresser porn. At first it was just a little bit then I watched it more and more. I'm intrigued and love the female form and the idea of a man dressed up looking very sexy as women and engaging in sexual acts turned me on. From there it's progressed. In the past week I've been watching crossdresser porn compilations and sissy hypnotic videos and feeling quite different. It has me unnerved and a bit scared.
I'm at a tipping point. I can't quit watching them. Every attempt at stopping has been futile. I've been masturbating to these hypno vids like 4-5x a day and spending hours watching them and looking at pictures. My problem is that now that I've been watching this type of porn I've found myself changing and living in kind of a dream state for the past week. I've been waking up in the middle of the night and morning dreaming about having sex w/ random men while dressed in lingerie and such. I've shaved my genitalia, bought panties and toys, and begun having urges to go have random sex with men. I can't sleep or close my eyes without thinking about it and haven't slept right since I discovered the hypno videos about a week ago. It's gotten to the point where I actually find myself craving for lack of a better term, cock and cum all day. Fantasies running amok. I even get aroused by key words such as sissy slut and others. Just by writing it has gotten me aroused. This has got to stop. How do I stop myself from going any farther? Can I nip this in the butt (no pun intended) or am I messed up for life now? I don't want to feel this way, yet I can't stop the excitement I get from watching it. It's really affected my daily life, sleep patterns, and my overall mental health. It's gotten me very concerned that these hypnotic videos and my attraction/addiction to them will have grave and irreversible consequences in my life. I really don't know what to do and that's why I am here.
Do any of you have any advice on how to correct this and clear my life of it? I'm a pretty solid guy and have high hopes and aspirations for my life. I know this is graphic, but I really don't want to be turned into a crossdressing whore with and insatiable craving for gay sex which if this keeps progressing that's what I will become.
I'm straight or at least I thought I was. I love women and I only want to be in a meaningful relationship with them, to be a father, and live that life. I feel like if I don't curb this now I will never have that.
For the record I have no problem w/ fetishes if they are used in a way that's supported by a partner and boundaries are established.
Is this who I am and can I go back to being a hetero man after this? From the things I've read I think I can, but I need support. Thanks for reading and I would definitely appreciate some guidance and help.