You're having a bad day, and it's all written in your text, there's no need to blame yourself for whatever mistakes you've made, it was your calls and decisions, take a break, and, as you've also mentioned, but not necessarily alcohol, drinking may harm you much more.
You had your sweet winning days, but don't you think you're being too hard on yourself? If you're good at sportsbooks and have a lot of wins, don't you think it's better to stick to that one rather than engaging in multiple games and sportsbooks that may leave you with a huge slip of losses? Take a break and remember that it's all for fun and little motivation for money if you want to have inner peace with gambling.