I need to examine myself
I recommend Ayahuasca, towards that end.
I'd go with Mescaline. If taken as HCl there's no purging and the experience is so pleasant that I can only barely imagine what kind of dumb shit you would have to do for things to go south.
M is really good stuff. However, I slightly prefer Pedro extract to the pure molecule, which is a little cold and edgy. The extract is rounder, more complex, evolving. Nausea and other stomach discomfort can be managed by making the extract very concentrated and downing it a little at a time, with airtight parachutes.
I could see myself trying Peyote (as Pedros took more volume I believe) if that is true.
Are you sure you're not just tricking your mind by preferring "natural" substances though? Because Mescaline HCl (extracted from Peyote) felt like a psychedelic version of MDMA to me. I could probably be set on fire and still feel like reality is the most wonderful thing that could ever be. I honestly can't begin to imagine how anything could be even more warm and fuzzy without losing the psychedelic aspect.
I don't think I'm victim to the "If it's natural, it must be better" New Age fallacy. What does "natural" mean anyway? Low tech? Indeed, I look at selected designer drugs with favor, and choose them over "natural" depending on the intended application.
Peyote contains more M than Pedro, and less additional stuff (I mean other alkaloids).
I think it's the additional stuff that gives extra magic to Pedro.
The Pedro/Peyote difference in extract volume can't make that big a difference in discomfort IMO.
I agree that M, and Pedro even more so, have a definite empathic feeling not unlike MDMA, especially at the onset, somewhere between 2:00 and 4:30. M and Pedro feel subtler, less stimulant (dreamy at times) and less "pushy" than MDMA. Yes I did take notes. It's been quite a while since my last time with either MDMA or anything containing mescaline.
