Do you wanna know how to trade briliiantly, then you cannot be afraid,
Traders Fail, Fail, and Fail again and again; but make sure that you learn to fail better, learn to fail in grand styles. Soon you will be be unable to fail because you have experienced what it looks like to fail, and why it happened that you fail.
Thats when you will start to consistently win; let away the fear, fail, embrace the failure by learning to be better; then you will enjoy every bits of trading.
There is just one big problem with your approach, in almost every single other activity the cost of failing is very close to zero, if you try to learn a new skill and suddenly you realize that it is not for you it is not really a big deal, you just move on, but in the case of trading and investing the only way to learn if you have what it takes to be a good trader is by actually using money and after your first failure you are going to lose the majority of your money or even all of your money and then you have no way to keep experimenting, that is why I always say that the first thing that you need to learn as a trader is not to earn money but to limit your losses.