I hate losing and if it was a large sum of bitcoins anything more than 60mbtc is consider a large enough sum to me. Then that would cause me to weep like a little boy who lost his favorite pet. 
Everyone hate losing on gambling, especially if a larget amount of bitcoins. It will makes the person crying if he lose all their money. Once i every cried because i lose my all in bet.
You are not the only one who experience that. I too have been that before. I was playing and i keep losing. Unbelieving that i will continue to loss, i bet a bigger amount and i still end up losing. Emotionally upset, i start to feel that i am not so unlucky to get another lose and so this time round i go all in. That is where i hurt myself the most and i have learnt my lesson.
The most important thing is you learned your lesson. Sometimes we need a hurtful kick in the head before we realize what we are doing is wrong. I hope you stopped gambling after that or atleast minimized your gambling losses and time spent on gambling. Otherwise, that painful experience have taught you nothing.
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