i am now really frustrated with this loss, and i'm tired of playing futures again, really sucks,
How? should i be able to hold this emotion mate?, seeing my balance going to 0 on binance makes my heart hurt even more.
And when you think that you're already prepared to get into another level of trading, then, that's the right time for you to scale up and do futures. I've seen people got burned there because they thought that it's an easy thing and everyone can make easy money there but little did they know, it's the fastest way of losing money if you're new to it.
Stick with Spot first when you are just starting and try out to take a good grasps before you do make out some step up into your trading career.