i'm not arguing that prescription drugs is not a problem. it doesn't really matter what i say, since you live in your own bubble.. all i want to know is what your situation is. why do you not like your parents? what have they done to you? what made them send you to see a psychiatrist?
I love my parents. I don't like how they treat me but I love that lost spirit of love they hold deep inside. I don't feel love back from them. They fear me. They worry about me. The call the police on me for speaking my word of truth. They've had me taken to psych wards where I was drugged with neurotoxic poisons and had my mind and body destroyed in a matter of days.
They label me and judge me, just as you do. Calling me a drug addict, schizophrenic, brain damaged, etc. They try to control me into their expectation of me rather than accepting me as who I am truly am.
Though even with all that, I still love them and forgive them for everything they have done to me. I have apologized for what I've put them through indirectly, though I'm trying to get them to understand that it's not me who makes them feel negative, it is their perception and I am who they blame it on. I can't help or change how they feel, they have to take the will to find peace, not rely on external factors to make an internal decision.
I long the day they also apologize and seek forgiveness. No relationship can last perfectly on this planet without seeking forgiveness from each other. If they can never forgive me, then they will never find peace. But at this point, they won't even let me in their house. My dad threatened to call the police for just stepping half a foot through the doorway.
It is not love, love is unity, love is understanding, love is connection, all of which I do not have with my parents.
And people who judge me on here are just further perpetuating their delusion (false beliefs) and sealing their fate. That's why I wish we could stop thinking so primitively and just ask questions rather than cast judgments and doubt. My parents deserve to find peace and ascend into eternity, and you do to, but I cannot change you, you must do that. The more doubt you spread, the harder it will be to climb out that hole of negativity. You can't simply say the words "Please forgive me god" you must mean it sincerely.
It's very sad that they would rather look as their son, the product of their own creation and parenting, as delusional and crazy and basically incompetent rather than viewing the positive side and truly considering that the things I say could be true.
My dad said he'd rather die than live in a world where I succeed and perform at the music festival. Do you know how it effects you to hear that? My dad would rather die than gain humility and wisdom by admitting he was wrong. That is simply what alcohol does, it poisons your body and mind, it decreases brain activity and opens your mind to lower dimensional thought processes.
I know there is a part of him that sees just how outrageous it is for him to say that, but to this point, he is further perpetuating the demon's (negative thought pattern) control over his reality. And by judging me, you are too.
We are all naturally wrong, that is the point of being a human, to make mistakes. Those that never admit their mistakes never learn from them and never grow as a person. They repeat the same actions and patterns over and over expecting something different, and that my friends is the definition of insanity.