But I think after that couple of losses, maybe Allah has changed his mind about helping me. I think I'm going to delete that $100,000 of Ether I've won and go back to living a clean life.
How much fund you have earned so far since you involve gambling? Is more than 1 M usd?
Read that carefully that is not $1M as he is saying it is around $100,000, gambling is always uncertain way of income and nobody has control over the outcomes, sometimes any unexpected result can break the winning rhythm at any time, so it is really hard to get back on track when we lost because after this we lost confidence in ourself.