Anyways, I ought to explain why I am such a douchebag: My perception is skewed to where I think the whole world is shit. I think everything is falling apart and everything is against me. Rationally and objectively, that is not the case. We live in a rudderless world with many powers at play. Yet after seeing and reading about war, corruption and other "evils" extensively, I can't help but to feel terror lurks around every corner and every facet in life. This turns me into a really butthurt and annoying faggot. Especially when I think everyone hates me. It's why I am always surprised by any genuine respect that comes my way. I literally expect everyone to hate me outright. And, well, that makes me a very depressed individual at times.
I'll try to be more rational. I'll try to be more collected in the future.
Thanks.
We live in a society that is fundamentally hostile to human life. Your fears are somewhat justified. Instead of lashing out at particular individuals, learn how and why the various systems and institutions that affect our lives are in fact causing so much destruction and death. You won't be quite as angry if you understand what is really happening.