I have a confession to make: I still have to buy anything online using my Bitcoin. Of course, I am not including the coins/tokens I bought during their ICOs. Except for that, I have not used my Bitcoin for anything because I am actually treating Bitcoin as a way for me to save rather than a currency to spend.
In other words, I am also a speculator just like most of us here. We want to hold on to the Bitcoin we have as much as possible because even if there are times when Bitcoin can dip in value the overall trend is going up. Right now, there is a retreat in the value of Bitcoin but it is just gathering some inertia before jumping into a higher wall.
Are you a speculator or a spender?
Don't feel bad about it, for starters.
I have bought one thing, about 4 years ago now, online, using Bitcoin. Nowadays I am being more of a speculator and doing the same kinds of things most people are probably doing with their Bitcoin on exchanges, and I am relatively comfortable with that kind of style and performance within the marketplace and community. There isn't really anything that I really want to buy these days, so why not make the most out of what I have available to me?