Sorry if this isn't the place.
I feel sorry for you mate, if a small investor like me feel so bad already for losing just hundreds of dollars then what more to a person like who lose thousands. I also know that I'm not in the right position to say this but let me do it to somehow boostyour confidence. When life hits you hard it is okay to mourn because that's normal, at the end of the day you are still a human — an imperfect human which can feel pain when get hurt. It's okay to get angry or to cry out loud if you want to, it will not decrease your manhood at all. However, you should think that you need to stand up because choosing to stay on the ground makes everything worse. Find your motivation once again and be better, that's the only way to become a successful person. Always keep in mind that " Success is my only motherf*cking option, failure is not" (it works for me tho) .