The most important thing to do right now is not do anything stupid (i.e. suicide or loss chasing). If you don't feel like you can't control yourself, I'm happy to help you timelock your money for the next year to prevent anything stupid.
In 10 years it'll seem like a distant "i really fucked up then" memory, so in the mean time focus on more important things in life. The truth is you just had those bitcoin sitting doing nothing anyway.
But being frank, you obviously have some latent self control issues. You really shouldn't gamble again, or if you do have extremely strict limits you establish for yourself that are not based on loss-chasing. I would strongly advise you don't gamble until you can forget about this loss and consider chasing it.
But seriously, look at al the positive things you got going for you. Your remaining savings are more than 99.9% of the world. Learn from your mistake, forgive yourself and most importantly don't do anything stupid.
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P.S. I'd also recommend against casino investing. It's too easy to gamble from there, and it's best to distance yourself from casinos in general when you have a problem.
Thanks RHavar. Yes, I’m not planning to invest in casino bankrolls again, it’s just too tempting for me to bet. I do think I have a little bit more self control now, I haven’t even been betting with faucet satoshis.
My self control issues partly come from me seeing low probability events as “wont happen”. I made 97% bets thinking that if I only do it a few time’s, I won’t lose. But of course, you can always lose and just end up risking ridiculous amounts of money for relatively tiny gains.
I also feel bad because the $1.5m is my investment money. I don’t want touch it or spend it on myself, except for investing. It’s currently 67% crypto and 33% stocks. So I lost pretty much all of my spending money, and I feel pretty down over it... a lot of people have a million dollars net wealth, it’s not that much. I don’t have a house or anything.