Hey man, I'm not sure but it looks like you may be entering a manic phase. I'd suggest you step back for a few and slow down. Have a beer and do a self check.
In truth I am having a hard time following you guys but it is good reading.
Definitely 3+ years of fighting an illness (every DAMN DAY is a struggle!) which is much worse than readers may be able to comprehend if they've never been sick with cancer or Multiple Sclerosis (or other chronic illness with severe debilitation issues), can have effects like that. I really don't want to talk about my health in public, because I need to man up and deal with it. I have increased my exercise to every day intensity and I fight pain in my abdomen and head (especially the latter half of a run), but this seems to be giving me clarity of thought that caused me to realize how much effort I have wasted and be much more frank with myself about needing to produce an income and stop hoping for pie-in-the-sky outcomes.
There is something seriously broken inside my body. I think my pancreas is not functioning correctly. When you can't get the nutrients into your body because the bile is blocked and leaking out into the abdomen, then life is a hell. I can't afford to get medical treatment abroad and I don't trust the expertise here in the Philippines.
I hope I will say for the last time that I am gritting my teeth when I run and just the hell with the pain. I seem to be making a bit of progress with this fight-like-hell demeanor. I feel much stronger than September. Also not spending days here in this forum (the break I took from Jan 3 to today), seems to also help a lot. The pain is more on a limitation of performance and not a sharp excruciating pain. Perhaps I can characterize it feels like a combination of heat stroke (but I get it even when run in middle of night), and pain/weakness in gut/legs (which can also manifest in the head as well). The pain isn't sharp like a knife but the overall effect is imagine trying to force yourself to run while under heat stroke where you body wants to collapse and couple that with pain that increases as the athletic activity proceeds. This malaise also strikes when I am sedentary, and in most days of Aug/Sept I was just reduced to collapsing in the bed with very bad feelings all over my body and head was in throbbing pain coupled with a overall body feeling that is like I would prefer to not be inside this body!
Any way, never mind about me personally. I am a man. I have to deal with it.
I am posting to work through the understanding of where we are with crypto currency. And this is to help me determine if I continue with an altcoin or not, and also to help readers understand the technical issues.
I view this forum as most useful for getting clarity on ideas and technical discussions. It could also possibly be a place to make contacts for B2B dealings. But I do not view this forum as an advertising vehicle to "mine the investors". If I launch an altcoin, it will be launched directly to the users. This forum would not be my advertising vehicle.
I am doing a rethink on everything and then decide my direction. If I have a viable design that can really solve the CENTRALIZATION built into every crypto design thus far, then I will probably continue with my altcoin. If not, then I need to decide how to proceed and survive financially as well as health wise. But that isn't relevant for readers, so I will try to not mention my health, just bear in mind I am fighting every day and did seem to gain some strength with recent demeanor coupled with all the supplements I started since early October. I even added VitC and Moringa in Nov/Jan, so I continue to try to fight my way forward. If I have a slow developing tumor on my pancreas, then perhaps I can beat it naturally. I am not sure what I have because I have not expended any $ on diagnosis. I don't have enough $ for that. I am in dire straits. I reserve capital I have to complete what ever is my next phase of work/income.
When I say I am in dire straits, it is a combination of being financially depleted and having no income potential (at least not where I am located now and being likely unwilling to return to the USA to work). And couple that with an illness that can make it very difficult to think and be productive. Also factor in my age of nearly 51 and my declining eye health (blind in one eye since 1999 and my other eye was getting very blurry but this seems to have improved with the intense exercise regimen). But counter-balance that characterization, with even though my illness was horrible in Aug/Sept, I have of late had some inspiring athletic moments and over all seems I have been getting consecutive days of no issues with my ability to think and work. And even as ill as I am inside, I can still when i am feeling okay go do athletics with guys half my age. But I also I fight abdominal pain (and even sometimes my legs are entire numb) even when I am running and I don't have the level of performance any where near to what I was accustomed to before I got ill some years ago.
Also recently trying to think of ways I could attempt to have a business that didn't involve computer programming, caused me to study how crowded the opportunities outside of tech are becoming. For example here in Davao, there is a gas station every 200 meters. If you put up any successful business, it will be copied. There is too much capital that can't find a way to be invested productively. Manufacturing is very difficult because China can undercut you on price and China is becoming more adept at producing varied consumer goods (check out aliexpress.com, dhgate.com, and dx.com). If you do produce any innovation on a manufactured good (e.g. I was looking a portable speaker design), then China can just copy your intellectual property and produce it cheaper. The way forward is looking very bleak with the world being controlled by oligarchy, taxed to hell by government and the rest of us just slaves.
You there in in the West may not yet realize how dire this is becoming, because your debt economies haven't imploded yet and thus the governments are still supplying your economies with loads of debt so your standard-of-living is high and you feel not so worried (as the government will always take care of you). Once this comes crashing down 2017 or so, then you understand the urgency I feel about needing to find productive directions.
Wasting your money investing in delusional crypto is going to be a major regret for many of you. If we can really design crypto that will remain decentralized and provide a fundamental improvement over the current direction of the world, then perhaps our ideals and investment goals can be satisfied. But I am very skeptical (yet I will continue if my frank assessment passes the bullshit test).
I hope I can find one more career project that I can work on in computer programming and help a lot of people and also save my nest egg for retirement. I will be 51 in June and I have 0 for retirement and I am ill. I refuse to become a dependent of the USA government. I would rather live simply on a farm here.
I do much of what I do for ideological reasons. I am old and stubborn.
Meaning the banksters are shrinking their relative net worth.
