Topic: thinking about suicide (Read 1949 times)

As for everyone who replied helped me here your encouragements really helped a lot. At least I know there are people that din't even know me showed that they cared for me. I know that my problems about having suicidal thoughts are not full gone sometimes it still get into my head but I am fighting it as I want to move on from the experience that I have. since I am not using my real fb on that is link to my account (and going to remove)you wont be able to know who I really am (and also my real gender) so It's a good thing for it at least I can shared with you guys what happened to me that I still cannot get over with. When I was young I was raped by my friend at the age of 12 years old. I was young back then I was raised in a conservative family so things about sex is forbidden to talk about. then I we moved at a far place because my father had a fight with his siblings so he decided to stay away from them for good. then after settling in to our new home I met this boy let just called him boy A. He was a year older at me back then and he was nice so we get along very easily and since his family are members of a church our parents get along as well. then after some time he talks to me about stuff I don't know back then and that is the start of it. I may not tell the details of how I was raped but I know you get the gist of it. then it happened many times and after some time I found out that what he did is wrong. since I think that telling my parents about it they might kill me for the shame I will bring to the family If this thing comes out. So i kept it in my self up to now. since you don't know who I am I think it's safe to tell you about this. And that is the reason I don't trust somebody very easily and that kept bothering me even to this day.