You have no case as I am right that you have no experience that parallels mine. I don't care if you think that is arrogant, it isn't any less true. And I don't care if you think it is arrogant to say you don't even know what you don't know, it also isn't any less true.
A pitcher can come new to the leagues, sk, and throw 100 miles an hour. And he can still be beat, and often is, by an older pitcher who knows the tools of his trade. Raw power is not a substitute for refined and sober pitching skills, and being smart is not the same thing as being wise. C'mon, tell me you don't look back on your younger years and smile at the you you were then. I sure do.
It's called growing up.
I cannot help but read your words, and find in them a little of, "methinks he doth protest too much".
I will be tacky at this point to quote James, "The Varieties of Religious Experience" and your own worldview in the following, er, vein. It is said that circumcised guys are less sensitive than non-circumcised guys (based on the number of receptors in the foreskin blah blah blah). But you know what? No circumcised guy for life is ever going to know yea or nay and no uncircumcised guy, unless stupid enough to undergo the procedure at some late stage, will know either. There are some divides that imagination in the abstract cannot cross, circumcision and religious experience, no matter how tacky the comparison, are alike in that respect. ;-)
(If you've never read that guy, do yourself a favor and do so; for an easy entrance, I recommend Surprised by Joy).
Better yet, The Screwtape Letters. A really enjoyable way to approach the subject IMIV. Lewis was one of a generation of post WWI writers, of the "Lost Generation", he, CP Snow and others, who were alienated from their lifestyle (before Chantal Delsol) and sought to return to Christianity, but in a more intellectual approach, Fabian Christianity if you will. Tolkien was also in that vein, but in an extremely, extremely restrained fashion, as when Gandalf says to Frodo by way of comfort someting akin to "This is not all there is, there is a reason, a plan, and an understanding behind why this all is happening."
Anyway, because I have never once observed even a scintilla of evidence for the existence of anything but that which physically exists, I am, as I have already said, a pretty simple atheist.
I will, um, pass on that statement, which I find passing strange coming from someone as smart as thee.
I also have no problem with becoming worm poop, the prospect of which has never once made me feel hopeless... But no more "hopeless" now than then.
But I don't think that hope refers specifically to our individual continuance, rather to a teleology behind the universe that we are desirous of knowing exists. What makes atheism so pale and grey is that there is no purpose to anything if there is no dualistic universe, it's just a mechanical marvel, that's all, and all the joy you took in your celebration of your mom above is nothing but matrix programming.
I remember that back when I felt persuaded to consider the possibility of the existence of a higher power, whether it was the Holy Trinity of my childhood or the Guiding Oneness -- whatever that means -- of my agnostic stage, I didn't feel any day-to-day difference from how I feel now. I was still quite displeased, for example, about the party continuing without me. I still am -- I mean, who wants to miss a good party? Envious? Yup. Angry? A little (less so as I age, because, well -- life).
I remember reading Vernor Vinge's A Fire Upon the Deep, just a SUPERB scifi novel, and feeling so incredibly bitter when I put it down that I was never going to see not so much necessarily the particular universe he created, but rather the concept of a universe essentially ordered by man and other species that he laid out. As a historian, to me, life is like reading a great history, but knowing that I'm never going to get to see the fucking end of the story. Very, very, very, very irritating. C'mon, I linked it to the ebook edition, anyone who has any fucking imagination whatsoever (guys anyway) should read that book.
Finally, I'm sorry, it would irritate the fuck out of me if the atheists are right, because it would just make all of human history and human sentience nothing but a sick joke of nature that were better ended at the earliest possibility, rather than dragging out a species doomed to self-destruction till it takes the world down with it.