Maybe its time to pause and rethink again if you still want to come back after failing to recover your losses because as what you've said the results are not in your favor. Maybe we should set limits to ourselves specially in gambling because the worst scenario will be either we become poor or addicted to gambling.
You should get used to making notes and not always perfectionists with previous defeats, at least our target today will be recorded and written down any defeat factor we experience, sometimes the system applies randomly and we can find negative momentum appearing in some periods, even though this a suggestion that is not always real, but useful for determining attitude at the time of recovery.