Feeling defeated and hopeless is part of the problems. Once you understand that GOD really exist, our Earth is on a dangerous path to hell, the CREATOR of Earth has woken up people to warn humanity to repent and change their ways to advert the coming disaster, but people are hardened against the CREATOR and prefer to do things their own way.
Once you understand that a CREATOR of Heaven and Earth really exist and HE is currently using few humans as vessels to communicate with the World and asking humans to accept HIS Son (JESUS) who will save humans who believe in HIM from the coming evil and from the power of an evil entity called Satan, who controls(esp mind-control) much of humans living on Earth. The entity is deceiving those he controls to take them to hell.
JESUS will keep people who believe in him safe in the world during serious crisis that will engulf this world.
Once you focus on JESUS and ignore those in the world trying to make you feel hopeless and defeated, you will become stronger , nothing from the world can make you depressed, and whatever good things you ask JESUS HE will do it. The CREATOR is very real. I used to be an atheist until HE delivered me from it and the world ,and has taught and shown me things that will make you ashame of human knowledge and technology. Nothing could describe HIS GLORY and MAJESTY, not even our "religious teachings" could. The truth will keep you hopeful , strong , happy , blessed etc
Hope your soul will be saved because of your dedication and belief.
lately i've been struggling since either what i do doesn't matter or i'm hung up on my personal narrative (i.e. i'm a bad person so i deserve to feel bad).
i find it helps to do other stuff since dwelling on the feeling tends to be self-perpetuating.
There is no Inborn bad person , sometimes it is the community that teaches us to become one.