I want to help you if you tell me what to do. Do you have telegram? Where can you chat?
If I knew what to do, I would have done it myself already, though I have realized that what I'm doing is a simplified method of which the tools such as kangaroo are doing. I just add a number to my target p, and then subtract the result from my p, which seems to return my selected number.
Ok let me go technical on this, if we add 5 to 10, we will have 15, then subtracting 10 from 15 gives us 5, but in bitcoin's used curve, if we simply subtract 15 from 10, we won't see -5, instead we will see 20, that's how this complicated elliptic curve works, what I have done:
I have added 5 to 10 and 3 to 10, sum of them is 28 now, then I'd subtract 10 from 28 to obtain 18, now imagine I don't know 10, 13, 15, 18 and 28, I just have 5 and 3. But I know the distance between 10 and 13, 10 and 15, 10 and 18.
Now can you tell me how I can reach 10, 13, 15, 18 and or 28 by only adding or multiplying 3 and 5 together?
Well, when we simplify it like that, we could multiply 3 by 5 to get to 15, but in our case if I knew what is half of 10, I wouldn't be here at all, I'm just randomly guessing some numbers and then I'd add and subtract them.
Today I found out if we add -20 to 10, we get 20, and adding -10 to 20, we get 10, it works other way as well.
If you are more confused than before, you should be, this is how cryptography works, confusion is the key!