Thank you for all the replies.
Let me clarify on this again.
Yes, it was totally dumb to bet 20k of my profits into gambling. Learnt my lesson from it and will recover from here and hope in the future will not have the same thing happen again.
And about sportsbetting , want to clarify that personally i love MMA . from the start to the end , even before i start trading i do started to watch MMA/boxing etc. and the 'sports' i bet is on MMA with 'extra' cash. this weekend will be my last sportsbetting for awhile until 3 month (decided to go for 3 month) and fully focusing on my trading and my RL works ( to help forget about gambling ) . Will constantly update on this thread about what going on and did i success on 'exclude' myself from betting.
My aim right now : Stop gambling on (slots,online casino thingy) . Sportsbet ( i will continue even after my 3 month exclusion , checked with my previous record, not even 6-1 years of betting in sportsbet lose more than 20k in 2 days. )
Thank you and i will update here . ( won't be constantly replying post )
That being said I still think it is a good idea to look for a professional on the field of addiction and see what you can learn from it, and while I do not think you are addicted to gambling you could face that danger in the future and it is better to be prepared and be able to recognize the signs before it is too late.