Even on high ranks we still get a joyful feeling when we received merits. It does means that we are beinf helpful or someone must have like the response or topic that being shared. Receiving merits are one of the best feeling when you are here in forum and I understand what you means since you have a goal to rank by means of merits. It will eventually come anyway, just be motivated always and do your best to contribute in this forum.
Although I don't look too much on my merit count, whenever I accidentally notice changes in my merit count, it feels like an interaction already even if I don't get reply/ies in my post.
It's nice to somehow meet an internet stranger sometimes.
Even being a Legendary, I like it when I receive merit(s). It shows that you have contributed something which others appreciate. That's what the main goal of this forum is.
Make your contribution and let community decide if it's good or not. If it is, they will show their support with merit(s). A newbie getting merit is a sign of progress on his/her understanding of this forum.
Reminds me when I get an upvote in a 4 year old comment I made in Reddit.