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November 05, 2022, 10:01:22 PM
November 05, 2022, 09:46:00 PM
Bitching and whining...
I don't want to dismiss your pebbles but you might be overthinking some of it. For example in my previous job of ~5 years my spouse was never inside my office because it was just easier for me to get outside. We had an annoying sign-in-and-get-a-temporary-badge process for visitors and also very thin walls unfit for private conversations.
And even if what you're thinking is true, it's not like you could have changed much (or anything). Don't beat yourself up about it.
Fucking Pebbles... all I have left.
accretion is a fundamental process of growth....take the dust and rubble of this dissolution and forge it into a new beginning for yourself
i am not saying it will be easy...just perhaps that it is possible
keep your chin up sir
whining and bitching is what the wall is all about dont you know? wo's all gotta vent somewhere...yes? ....ps try and cut back on the blackout nights...you will thank me later
November 05, 2022, 09:38:30 PM
Fucking Pebbles... all I have left.
I hear you man. Those pebbles can be ruthless.
November 05, 2022, 09:23:24 PM
Bitching and whining...
I don't want to dismiss your pebbles but you might be overthinking some of it. For example in my previous job of ~5 years my spouse was never inside my office because it was just easier for me to get outside. We had an annoying sign-in-and-get-a-temporary-badge process for visitors and also very thin walls unfit for private conversations.
And even if what you're thinking is true, it's not like you could have changed much (or anything). Don't beat yourself up about it.
Fucking Pebbles... all I have left.
November 05, 2022, 09:07:51 PM
When things started getting back to normal I encouraged her to pursue a new position with the company she had been interviewing with just before the world shut down. She did and was rewarded with an excellent position in which she jumped into with both feet. A 25% raise and excellent benefits,man I thought things were going great! But yet the drinking kept getting worse and the distance a little more noticeable. There were no more invites to company functions, weird, but hey, different company different atmosphere right? But then I noticed she had been there for almost a year and I had never even met any of her coworkers. When I stopped by her office to drop off a forgotten item or invite her to lunch, she always met me in the parking lot and had to get back inside because she was busy.
I don't want to dismiss your pebbles but you might be overthinking some of it. For example in my previous job of ~5 years my spouse was never inside my office because it was just easier for me to get outside. We had an annoying sign-in-and-get-a-temporary-badge process for visitors and also very thin walls unfit for private conversations.
And even if what you're thinking is true, it's not like you could have changed much (or anything). Don't beat yourself up about it.
November 05, 2022, 09:01:17 PM
November 05, 2022, 08:50:48 PM
Fuck, I'm gonna have nightmares with this face now... ugh.
Having said that, Twitter has always been a shithole. Can't think of a better way to destroy it than by throwing 40 billion fiats into the bonfire.
November 05, 2022, 08:49:53 PM
Thanks Guys, it's comforting to know that at least someone hears me when I scream into the void. God knows she doesn't.
I have found that when that rock, that is the foundation of your existence shatters... you almost instantly start closely examining ever pebble that remains. Looking for cracks you may have missed... Until you realize you've buried yourself in cracked pebbles, with no way to dig out and get back to that rock, even if you still wanted to.
Of course I recognize that we had our problems. Everyone does, as there's not one perfect person among us, much less a union of two. But it was always a foregone conclusion that we would work together for a better tomorrow. I had seen the bit of space growing between us, and I noticed the lack of contention on her part when we disagreed. But those were secondary in my mind to the daily binges of black out levels of alcohol. I pulled her dead uncles corpse out of his truck when he drank himself to death on Christmas Eve. I knew alcoholism was a serious issue in her family. But when I tried to encourage her to get it under control, she lied to for the first time in our 20 years of marriage. Over an 11AM half bottle of Vodka.
So I changed tacts, I joined her in her drinking. Intentionally made myself an alcoholic by consistently drinking a liter per day for months on end. We laughed and talked and had a great time, but she never remembered it the next morning. My initial intention was to understand the battle with alcohol, but that morphed into a hope that she would recognize the damage it was doing to me even if she couldn't see it in the mirror. I truly understand now, and am having to really focus on getting it back in check. But also realize now that there was no hope of her seeing the mirror image I was projecting as she was successfully numbing the pain before inflicting it. If anything it just clouded my judgement and poured gasoline on her unexpressed and unaddressed building resentments.
Now, looking back, examining pebbles. I see that alcohol was a symptom, but not entirely the cause. She had a rough patch in 2020 (didn't we all) and was crying out to me over her feelings of loneliness and isolation. She had been furloughed due to the pandemic, and I had picked up additional hours to both make up for the loss of income and improve my career standing I had encouraged her to pursue her hobbies more seriously and meet a network of friends with similar interests to join her in her adventures. Which she did, and seemed happier, more independent, but a little less engaged. I never even stopped to contemplate the fact that I'd never even met any of her new friends, and was only mildly disheartened that she no longer even asked me to join her.
When things started getting back to normal I encouraged her to pursue a new position with the company she had been interviewing with just before the world shut down. She did and was rewarded with an excellent position in which she jumped into with both feet. A 25% raise and excellent benefits,man I thought things were going great! But yet the drinking kept getting worse and the distance a little more noticeable. There were no more invites to company functions, weird, but hey, different company different atmosphere right? But then I noticed she had been there for almost a year and I had never even met any of her coworkers. When I stopped by her office to drop off a forgotten item or invite her to lunch, she always met me in the parking lot and had to get back inside because she was busy.
Just a tangential observation at the time but things get a lot clearer when examining pebbles after the fact. So I guess the realization after the fact, is that a partner that builds a new life and doesn't want to have you involved in it, is quite possibly building a new life without you. And when you're trying to focus on the apparent problem of alcoholism, it might be best to stay clear headed and ask, why is she drinking? Is it You?
Fucking pebbles!
But hey, I got my corns and now I've got some Smerits too! But I'm only HODLing one of them! Thanks again Guys!
I have found that when that rock, that is the foundation of your existence shatters... you almost instantly start closely examining ever pebble that remains. Looking for cracks you may have missed... Until you realize you've buried yourself in cracked pebbles, with no way to dig out and get back to that rock, even if you still wanted to.
Of course I recognize that we had our problems. Everyone does, as there's not one perfect person among us, much less a union of two. But it was always a foregone conclusion that we would work together for a better tomorrow. I had seen the bit of space growing between us, and I noticed the lack of contention on her part when we disagreed. But those were secondary in my mind to the daily binges of black out levels of alcohol. I pulled her dead uncles corpse out of his truck when he drank himself to death on Christmas Eve. I knew alcoholism was a serious issue in her family. But when I tried to encourage her to get it under control, she lied to for the first time in our 20 years of marriage. Over an 11AM half bottle of Vodka.
So I changed tacts, I joined her in her drinking. Intentionally made myself an alcoholic by consistently drinking a liter per day for months on end. We laughed and talked and had a great time, but she never remembered it the next morning. My initial intention was to understand the battle with alcohol, but that morphed into a hope that she would recognize the damage it was doing to me even if she couldn't see it in the mirror. I truly understand now, and am having to really focus on getting it back in check. But also realize now that there was no hope of her seeing the mirror image I was projecting as she was successfully numbing the pain before inflicting it. If anything it just clouded my judgement and poured gasoline on her unexpressed and unaddressed building resentments.
Now, looking back, examining pebbles. I see that alcohol was a symptom, but not entirely the cause. She had a rough patch in 2020 (didn't we all) and was crying out to me over her feelings of loneliness and isolation. She had been furloughed due to the pandemic, and I had picked up additional hours to both make up for the loss of income and improve my career standing I had encouraged her to pursue her hobbies more seriously and meet a network of friends with similar interests to join her in her adventures. Which she did, and seemed happier, more independent, but a little less engaged. I never even stopped to contemplate the fact that I'd never even met any of her new friends, and was only mildly disheartened that she no longer even asked me to join her.
When things started getting back to normal I encouraged her to pursue a new position with the company she had been interviewing with just before the world shut down. She did and was rewarded with an excellent position in which she jumped into with both feet. A 25% raise and excellent benefits,man I thought things were going great! But yet the drinking kept getting worse and the distance a little more noticeable. There were no more invites to company functions, weird, but hey, different company different atmosphere right? But then I noticed she had been there for almost a year and I had never even met any of her coworkers. When I stopped by her office to drop off a forgotten item or invite her to lunch, she always met me in the parking lot and had to get back inside because she was busy.
Just a tangential observation at the time but things get a lot clearer when examining pebbles after the fact. So I guess the realization after the fact, is that a partner that builds a new life and doesn't want to have you involved in it, is quite possibly building a new life without you. And when you're trying to focus on the apparent problem of alcoholism, it might be best to stay clear headed and ask, why is she drinking? Is it You?
Fucking pebbles!
But hey, I got my corns and now I've got some Smerits too! But I'm only HODLing one of them! Thanks again Guys!
November 05, 2022, 08:46:19 PM
November 05, 2022, 08:44:48 PM
OK Guys,
Not sure why I feel the desire to tell you guys (and girl) this, I guess after lurking daily for about 18 months, I've tricked my psychie into actually thinking of some of you as friends.
Anyway, after consistently DCA'ing every week for 75+ weeks, I am officially past the "one in 100M" point. Unfortunately, in mid September I became literally one. My beautiful wife, whom I have adored for the last 22 years packed up her basic necessities and announced that we were getting a divorce. No fights, no affairs, no logical explanation. She had already set up a PO Box, a new bank account, and had a little less than ½ of the available funds transferred a couple hours before informing me. As of that morning I was 100% certain that we were in for the long haul, till death did us part. As of that evening I was a broken mess wondering why I was still breathing. I came to the grim resolution that she had not killed me (physically) because she didn't want to live with the guilt. And therefore, because I love her so much, I can't just die and force her to live with it anyway.
I'm broken. But I still got my Bitcoin and I am in the green... so that's nice... I guess.
Not sure why I feel the desire to tell you guys (and girl) this, I guess after lurking daily for about 18 months, I've tricked my psychie into actually thinking of some of you as friends.
Anyway, after consistently DCA'ing every week for 75+ weeks, I am officially past the "one in 100M" point. Unfortunately, in mid September I became literally one. My beautiful wife, whom I have adored for the last 22 years packed up her basic necessities and announced that we were getting a divorce. No fights, no affairs, no logical explanation. She had already set up a PO Box, a new bank account, and had a little less than ½ of the available funds transferred a couple hours before informing me. As of that morning I was 100% certain that we were in for the long haul, till death did us part. As of that evening I was a broken mess wondering why I was still breathing. I came to the grim resolution that she had not killed me (physically) because she didn't want to live with the guilt. And therefore, because I love her so much, I can't just die and force her to live with it anyway.
I'm broken. But I still got my Bitcoin and I am in the green... so that's nice... I guess.
People change. Sometimes they change together, sometimes apart unfortunately.
It sounds like you will have an amicable separation, which is better than most divorces. Stay strong. Try to focus on routine stuff for a while, don't make big decisions. Life sometimes hits you where least expect but also has a habit to sort itself out with time.
November 05, 2022, 08:32:28 PM
DISCLAIMER: beautiful off-topic content
Good night from M31 (Andromeda), our neighbour galaxy.
Stacked about 35 minutes of exposure, reduced stars a bit, enhanced contrast.
Good night from M31 (Andromeda), our neighbour galaxy.
Stacked about 35 minutes of exposure, reduced stars a bit, enhanced contrast.
YOU CAPTURED THIS!!???!?!?!??
What a universe we live in!
November 05, 2022, 08:31:33 PM
You are 100%$ correct as always ChartBuddy.
Don't let anyone say otherwise.
They will love you while we go up... in fact you will not even post frequently enough for them.
It's the nature of THE BEAST (666) no matter what they say.
But on we go!
Don't let anyone say otherwise.
They will love you while we go up... in fact you will not even post frequently enough for them.
It's the nature of THE BEAST (666) no matter what they say.
But on we go!
November 05, 2022, 08:29:35 PM
DISCLAIMER: beautiful off-topic content
Good night from M31 (Andromeda), our neighbour galaxy.
Stacked about 35 minutes of exposure, reduced stars a bit, enhanced contrast.
Good night from M31 (Andromeda), our neighbour galaxy.
Stacked about 35 minutes of exposure, reduced stars a bit, enhanced contrast.
November 05, 2022, 08:01:17 PM
November 05, 2022, 07:31:53 PM
OK Guys,
Not sure why I feel the desire to tell you guys (and girl) this, I guess after lurking daily for about 18 months, I've tricked my psychie into actually thinking of some of you as friends.
Anyway, after consistently DCA'ing every week for 75+ weeks, I am officially past the "one in 100M" point. Unfortunately, in mid September I became literally one. My beautiful wife, whom I have adored for the last 22 years packed up her basic necessities and announced that we were getting a divorce. No fights, no affairs, no logical explanation. She had already set up a PO Box, a new bank account, and had a little less than ½ of the available funds transferred a couple hours before informing me. As of that morning I was 100% certain that we were in for the long haul, till death did us part. As of that evening I was a broken mess wondering why I was still breathing. I came to the grim resolution that she had not killed me (physically) because she didn't want to live with the guilt. And therefore, because I love her so much, I can't just die and force her to live with it anyway.
I'm broken. But I still got my Bitcoin and I am in the green... so that's nice... I guess.
Not sure why I feel the desire to tell you guys (and girl) this, I guess after lurking daily for about 18 months, I've tricked my psychie into actually thinking of some of you as friends.
Anyway, after consistently DCA'ing every week for 75+ weeks, I am officially past the "one in 100M" point. Unfortunately, in mid September I became literally one. My beautiful wife, whom I have adored for the last 22 years packed up her basic necessities and announced that we were getting a divorce. No fights, no affairs, no logical explanation. She had already set up a PO Box, a new bank account, and had a little less than ½ of the available funds transferred a couple hours before informing me. As of that morning I was 100% certain that we were in for the long haul, till death did us part. As of that evening I was a broken mess wondering why I was still breathing. I came to the grim resolution that she had not killed me (physically) because she didn't want to live with the guilt. And therefore, because I love her so much, I can't just die and force her to live with it anyway.
I'm broken. But I still got my Bitcoin and I am in the green... so that's nice... I guess.
You gave your love to her, until she didn't need it anymore.
Now you're the one that needs all the love you can give. You deserve it.
There's emptiness that she left inside you. You have to fill it up again, and then you can also give love to someone else again.
Take care.
EDIT: This is beautiful
November 05, 2022, 07:24:04 PM
You will watch bitcoin go up and down, and you will be happy.
https://twitter.com/renampun/status/1589048765100720128
November 05, 2022, 07:01:22 PM
November 05, 2022, 06:42:24 PM
You will watch bitcoin go up and down, and you will be happy.
November 05, 2022, 06:01:17 PM
November 05, 2022, 05:01:19 PM
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