I totally understand what you feel, gambling addiction is very hard to quit, you can do some interesting things to divert your attention, like play football, or basketball with your friends. if you wanna do sport along, you could select running, actually, running is my favorite.
sports is recomended the most for addicts that want to change because in sports youl meet friends and your working out your entire body making you sweat and feel a lot better . it will make you more addicted to it and forget your bad addiction habits .
Recently, I just started making stupid deposits and trying to win something and I understand that this is self-deception, but I cannot stop and make more and more deposits. I decided to make the 1st level of VIP, but for this I need to make a turnover of 10k dollars, but I am a player with low stakes and this is difficult for me to do. You seem to understand everything that you will lose, but you go to play again.
low stake player but deposit more ? hows that . if you deposit more you are already in the 1st level of vip if that was your priority but no because you also have another priority and that was to win huge , this is something that cant be done together in my opinion .