I need to get ready for my flight to Cebu and then onward flight to Singapore.
I will just add one more thought to this thread.
I don't think any of you have internalized what my illness would do to you or any person. You haven't actually thought about what these symptoms would do to your ability to function daily. Actually try to imagine what the following described symptoms would do to you. Seriously imagine you never sleep. Never. For 4 fucking years! What would be your mental and emotional state? Have you never tried going without sleep? Don't tell me to sleep more, do you think I am a fucking idiot. Of course I try to sleep more, but my illness causes insomnia and it also makes the sleep that I get ineffective as if i didn't sleep. Now add inflammation cascade on top of that. Do you even have any idea what inflammation cascade would do to your mental state?
Please realize that for the past 4 years that I have been participating in the BCT forums, I have been chronically ill with the type of discombobulating symptoms that I explained upthread:
My symptoms include debilitating discomfort and inflammation of the brain and skull which actually inhibits normal mental activity. Whereas, Hal could not move his body yet his brain was totally alert, I can move my body fine but my brain becomes totally lacking of energy and thus discombobulated (not always as it comes and goes throughout the day or in batches of days). The best way to try to imagine my symptoms is to not sleep for 48 hours where you can barely hold your eyes open, also eat some feces so you have a really bad stomachache and diarrhea and feel like you want to vomit and feel horrible, then try to do something mentally. And my illness causes horrendous insomnia as well. It isn't something in my mental condition that is causing it. It is a physical problem in my digestive system and liver. In fact, after I ate tonight (while I was writing here on the forum), I had a horrible inflammation cascade (meaning welts on the back my head, burning in my abdomen and generally feeling like shit again), because my body was digesting that food. Food makes me very ill. But I need food.
My mental exasperation is an outcome of 4 years of having those damn symptoms every day. Wouldn't you be fucking tired of have horrible diarrhea and feeling like you had not slept every damn day for 4 fucking years? Come on. Be fucking real.
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Don't you think that since I am a smart guy that if there was any way I could just code and do less physical activity, that of course I would have a long time ago chosen that, because certainly after making a lot of money, I could afford better health care. Obviously I tried that in the 2013- 2015 timeframe and it didn't work. Do you guys just assume that I am a dumb ass or totally full of shit. I don't understand this. I am very open and honest about everything and I have demonstrated my intellect.
Now imagine how much could any of those experts you've cited accomplish if they were in a similar discombobulated state of health and mental function. Now imagine what I could accomplish if I were healthy. You don't have to imagine, because I was one of the 3 original programmers of what is Corel Painter (not Paint) and I created CoolPage all by myself and captured 1 million users (when the Internet was 10X smaller in population).
All the comments about "
talk is cheap, show me the code" are correct. But I didn't start this thread. I haven't even committed to doing an ICO. I often thought maybe I would just go direct to distributing the currency per my unique design and no need for an ICO. But if an ICO can build an army of supporters and also accelerate development, then it might make sense. But we are not yet at that stage to make such an evaluation.
But before you go making incorrect presumptions, maybe you ought to at least think about what I just wrote. Seriously men, do you not realize what a feat it is to have accomplished what I did in spite of being so sick that I should have accomplished nothing at all. Obviously you can't read my whitepaper yet, so you don't know what I have accomplished, but I didn't start this thread boasting about closed source. I merely defended myself and also since I got pissed off by the disrespect (I mean I am very sick and you guys think it is perfectly acceptable to load stress on me and misrepresent my statements, intent, and past performance), I decided to express my delight at the FACT that I have a design that is a sequel to Satoshi. If you choose to doubt that, that is fine, but if you had any clue to my history of being correct perhaps you should allow a little bit more respect and wait to find out.
Wim Hof methods was initiated last night and will be repeated in another couple of hours. I am trying to find a cure for my health. As I said, that is why I was going to National University Hospital in Singapore (NUHS) next week but switched it to that expert gutcare clinic in Singapore which is also roughly affiliated with NUHS.
If I am healthy, you won't hear from me anymore. And pinheads won't get any replies. Actions will speak louder than words.
That is why I suggested you close this thread. All the snide remarks aren't helping anyone.
And the speculation about what I can and can't do is not informational. Wait until there is a project announced and whitepaper released. Then you can make some informed appraisals.
Edit: I realize that it seems like a lie that I could do intense sports and athletics yet still have a debilitating illness and symptoms I described. Intense exercise is something I can do with will power and adrenaline and I actually feel better (more alive) while I am doing it (although the abdominal pain will limit me). The intense exercise actually seems to be beneficial but not totally curative thus far. But after the activity, I do crash again into those symptoms. I am not making this up. I am not a hypochondriac. Fuck yesterday I told the doc to sew my eye lid without any lidocaine. I am not a wimp or pussy. The things that I am doing now are because I am a fighter. I think what would happen to most other people with my illness is they would try to lay in bed always, taking medication for insomnia (e.g. sleeping pills), and they would become crippled. In fact, maybe I do have Multiple Sclerosis but I just fight it so much that I have a different outcome. Recent research has correlated MS with gut dysfunction since 70% of the immune system is in the gut.
1. My health has been declining for many years, and I tried everything ranging from no exercise, to limited exercise, to regular exercise. And every possible imaginable supplement and known treatment option excepting surgery. Nothing works. Nothing. So I might as well try to do something. Because nothing else is working. (Don't tell me I haven't tried modern medicine because I also did 21 days of doxycycline)
Also when I didn't do as much exercise, my health became much worse! Almost entirely debilitated. It got so bad that I thought I had MLS where I started to have very weak legs and uncontrollable muscle spasms and I was starting to become crippled.
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My illness is not the same as his illness. Before he died, I had messaged him because I thought I had MLS and I thought maybe treatment options I was trying he might want to know about (but I hadn't studied ALS and later I realized my messages to him were silly).
I am not lashing out at you specifically. I am screaming to all and especially those that are bored and keep berating me and stirring up slander, "
leave me the fuck alone and let me deal with my health problem and then we will see what happens".