I don't usually keep tabs on losses and wins while playing casino games. I used to earlier but that often led to keep up gambling more trying to build up better stats ....and gambling in long run you know which way it goes so it never worked out for me and I made it out of habit now.
Nowadays I just keep some parlay bets from sports book which I won beating some good odds.
I think you should start learning to do that. I was once like you, never paying attention to my loses or keeping records until the day I noticed the money I had kept for something very important was all gone and the only place it could be traced to was gambling. I felt very hurt and I mean really hurt because if I was keeping records I would have known earlier that I have exceeded my limit.
I later won big after my loses anyway but forgetting the losses made wasn’t something so easy to do. I think we would eventually forget at the end but it might take long, not necessarily after winning but after healing from the loss experience.
In your case, I would assume you had a nonchalant attitude. You don’t have to keep record of loses to know when you should put a pause to a game. What happened to setting limit and the likes? And you successfully finished the money that was left in your custody for gambling.
I would have thought this was a fictional story, but I have known you for some time to be very accurate and realistic and I am sorry to say, the regard I always had just dropped. How could you play a game to the extent of exhausting what was kept for you to hold, I feel disappointed and I hope you learnt your lessons from that anyway.
