To make it short, yeah, stupid I am, I lost that money and then immediately jump on to make a loan of another $100. But the same result, I have up and down in baccarat and slot machines. But at the end of the night, I went home, with nothing and then I have to pay that loan.
So it's a expensive lesson to learn for me, but I will be alright, I can pay that loan within a month.
I think you will never learn from that mistake to be honest with you. Because, it seems like you were never worried about the first $100 loan and then you added another $100, so that is like around $200+ or $300 in return when you pay for it from the lender.
Since you can easily pay for it within a month, there will be a good chance you'll get used to that kind of system. You take a loan and pay it within a month, this will go on cycle, no matter if you get a win and pay it in advance, AFAIK lenders do take a guaranteed interest for 1 month even if you pay early. With that interest, you will never get to fully enjoy and maximize the profit when you win, that's why it's always a smart decision to just use your own money than take a loan solely for gambling purposes.
things then this do really indicates that you are already that becoming addicted to it and this is something which is dangerous into your finances. This is why it would really be better that you would really be that sensible nor wary on the actions that you are making because every decisions been made would definitely reflect out or would really be that resulting whether negative or positive.