Dear AeroME community,Its been a few weeks since I have actually replied to ANYONE, which is fair to say the whole KL saga knocked me for six.
It is/was a totally despicable act that occurred and as such deeply affected myself on many levels the effects of his actions were also felt by members of my family, My dad most of all..
My father was shocked to hear what happened as I confide in him, not only about the some of the technical challenges I faced at times 'or' about the bad things which have happened but also about the good things and about the direction I wish to pursue and journey I am on with this project.
He is a layman in terms of cryptos and computers and disconnected from this enough to provide me with a different perspective from which I may not have already considered and its from someone who i trust implicitly.
A great example of this can be seen when my dad becomes excited for me when he see's my face light up after I discovered a solution to a problem which I had been working on or when the AM price goes up sometime he even calls me to say.. Sim have you check the bitcoin prices.. lol.
All this from a computer illiterate, 60+ year old man with severe health problems but is also wise and deeply caring person who is facing the prospects of the end of his life.
My father is extremely fascinated in cryptos and in the blockchain, the technologies in general from his limited understanding garnered together from the nuggets of information we discuss with each other from time to time. He wants to see his son succeed with his passion and when he learned about what happened he was devastated as he understood how this could jeopardize my work.
After he learned about what happened the first thing he said was to poor guy that got ripped off, is there any way we could help him!!! This was from my father own lips, he was actually concerned about the victim. It was his initial reaction.. This is the type of person who taught me how to act, how to grow into a man and to be a kind, caring and considerate human being.
I am not ashamed to admit it which is exactly what I said to KL shortly after I became aware about the situation I attempted to contact KL to find out what the fuck went on and why he done what he did only to be meet with brutal honesty, which quite frankly blew me away. I expressed my feelings, which may sound "touchy-feely" but thats how I felt and still feel to this day. I am extremely upset that someone could do this so blatantly BUT doubly so as the act originated from someone so respected (at the time) from within our own community. I expressed this to KL roughly like what I just said in the previous paragraph above. He replied and I left it at that.
By now, to most its all water under the bridge; sort of speak. To me its still a topic of which remains unresolved.
Again, I am being frank, this situation called into question my own judgement and resulted in me questioning myself about the amount of responsibility individuals involved with cryptos have 'or' are allowed to have. Trust and respect are very hard earned and to have this almost wiped out in one fail swoop has been a wake up call.
I try not to listen to the regular fudsters here as they are mostly ignorant and scarce of the facts surrounding issues they comment about. Firstly, about me as an individual, secondly my motivations, thirdly about my true intentions.
Its very difficult to convey in words someone's true intentions and to then also truly believe someone without seeing them face-to-face to determine exactly the type of person one is is extremely difficult to gain insights into someones true intentions and to gain a level of faith and trust based on faceless communications. Its only natural and is what you guys have to face and its understandable for it to be called into question. I understand this and is to be expected.
This is the problem I face in cryptos, faith through anonymous communications, its a very hard thing to "truly" accomplish on a social level that is, but in a computational system its quite simple to accomplish via various trustless mechanisms. The whole KL saga is a great illustration of why the Blockchain is the answer to many of the problems we face as a species. It will negate the need to trust for many of our daily tasks, etc. This whole thing was a blessing in disguise. It reaffirmed my distrust in man kind and systems in general. It confirmed my thinking that open and fair trustless systems are required to counter human base responses along with many other situations where faith/trust matters are involved and/or necessary.
Now, if I have been both directly and indirectly affected by KL actions and I am very upset. I can totally understand to a certain point how trust/distrust can be called into question.
I can only imagine how you guys, the community, my friends may or may not interpret my actions. I can only say something so many times..
If I were of the same mindset as KL why would his actions affect me so deeply if I did not care?? Do you not think If I could do something within my abilities I would? YES I WOULD.
I am still persevering to give back to the community, if you like, proving myself to all the detractors who say majika this or majika that.. blah blah to that I say FU. please leave me alone to do my work and to get over this moment of sadness.
This is NOT to say, during this period where i re-adjust my mindset I will not produce what i promised, nor does it mean i stopped caring about the project and the community its for. I am always here albeit not proactive in a social/community sense, I have alway been a bit introverted its just my genetic makeup I guess. It does not make me an idiot nor does it make me care less about you guys I respect myself enough to ensure I live upto my words but more so that I can actually do something greater in my works and design out some of the problems we all face today.
I am still here!! I have NO intentions of stopping my work, I WILL NEVER leave anyone holding the ball nor will I lie or cheat. I am here to try and do good for all and hopefully sustain my family in the process.. All i wish to do is produce a high-quality product, be friendly and treat people with respect that they deserve. That is all, its really that simple. Respectfully,
Majika
P.S X123 tbh I don't like the idea of deleting posts in this modded forum, As I believe in everyone should have a equal say in matters in an open and fair system, however, for you I will make an exception against my personal urges not to delete a post made by you. You have no clue about my abilities, past project involvements, past experience, previous jobs, nor about development skills, You are being very rude, you are not coming across as the type of person who I personally would like to have involved with this project, nor, do you come across as being very informed. You have attacked me for no reason which I am aware of, If you have something to say please feel free to PM me if you wish to continue your slurs at least then its only to my inbox where it doesn't affect others experience here.
Furthermore, Just like some of the other trolls which used to frequent the old AERO thread in the end we became good friends.. I do hope in time, someday we to can become friends with mutual respect for one another.
A bird that you set free may be caught again, but a word that escapes your lips will not return