I think my self confidence as a youth was a factor. I was very shy, and had a hard time talking to people in general.
I view women more as objects than people, honestly. I have had relationships, but have cheated each and every time. My relationships are generally not great, I used to have major jealously issues, but that has stopped as of late.
I view women more as objects than people, honestly. I have had relationships, but have cheated each and every time. My relationships are generally not great, I used to have major jealously issues, but that has stopped as of late.
I used to have problems with jealousy too. It stemmed from my belief that everyone was better than me. So they could come along and take her from me any time they desired.
I also went through addictions trying to blot out this hideous self-hatred. But of course this just creates a huge aversion in your mind, for your mind (or its contents). In the end things only started to improve when I began to face my fears.
It's amazing how quickly fears disappear when you look at them directly.
I guess it's easier for you to have meaningless sexual encounters than go through the hard work of having a proper relationship and all the fear that entails?
But you're giving up so much to your fear :/
Have you thought about getting some help to learn how to deal with stuff?
