Merv, the trick is to not be so predictable in life. You are very predictable. For instance I knew that you would talk about hate and despise, etc. etc.
Another problem with challenge for you is that you think you can understand the real mentality and whole of an individual from their forum posts. You are extremely Saturnian, which means you have a rigid framework from which you view the world and you can't understand why people don't see it as you do. So you assume it's reasons like mental inabilities or personal insecurities and/or things like that.
I used to be the same way to an extent. Through meditation and working with people who got to know me well, I came to realize that humans don't experience reality the same way. We all experience the same events differently to an extent. You cant quantify human behavior.
This is undeniably a difficult issue for you. You probably, from your frame of reference, just deny it completely.
As for me I also love laughter. So many of my responses to you are just to evoke my own sense of playfulness and joy, as I watch you struggle with putting my character into your framework of understanding.
I think that you are doing an amazing job on being unpredictable. I doubt that many could predict these chaotic vortexes of fury, that you are skilled to create.
I think that you are right. I have yet failed to fully understand on how a natural born douche perceives life. I understand some might want to present themselves like that, because according to their values, this kind of expressiveness is considered an honored trait. But it's true that I can't fully relate to a person like that, therefore I can't feel much sympathy towards them either.
I think that your meditation sessions are working out great, because you used to be a lot more tense. You have went from aggressive to passive-aggressive, and I think that this is progress. When you continue with your meditative practices, then soon you will discover that my posts have no effect on you, and you can just ignore them, without having any urge to reply.
That's an interesting theory, however I was doing meditation long before our first interaction.
Admitting you don't have the frames of reference to understand others is an important acknowledgement on your behalf. I applaud you for it. However, terming what you don't understand as douche is a bit aggressive on your part, IMHO. I think you may see others who are different than you as a threat, therefore catagorizing them in a derogatory way makes them the enemy, something quantifiable and catagorizable, which is comforting to you.
For me, I'm neither passive or passive aggressive. I'm rather mostly aggressive, however I am often very relaxed and very playful. And while to you it probably doesn't seem like those would go hand in hand, they most certainly can coexist quite nicely.
. But no is not the time for it, it would be wasted energy. My wannabe pumping skills are weak and i know it, but i´m bored so what should i do.
