It's getting worse every day. I'm extremely depressed I have thoughts of unaliving myself more often, some times I feel the betting companies manipulate people spiritually to get them addicted where be playing without plans and strategy. Once a bet place get cut, there is this uncomfortable urge to quickly book another one with the plans of recovering the first money lost but it will end up cutting again.
I'm so sorry this is happening to you. But gambling is really made to be satisfying and addicting. This is why most of the time, casinos whether physical or online have extravagant colors and designs to keep you from playing more and more. They lure people into playing and betting by giving them rewards, bonuses, and other enticing offers. Hence, it's important to know yourself first before gambling. Because you need to have a strong sense of discipline in order to thrive in the industry without being lost in the process.
You can ask the casino site for self-exclusion or banning of your account so you won't access their games to help you in your recovery in being gambling dependent. It will be a hard and perhaps will be a long process, but if you have the will and determination to quit, I believe you can do it. You can also get counseling help if you can afford it to help you in the process. Goodluck to you and hopefully you'll be able to overcome this in your own pacing.