Whatever it is, it has you going big time. For example, rather than admit that you can't show that science has not proven that God exists, you do the thing that you do naturally. That is to blabber like a political scientist, over and over, hoping to keep yourself solidly in the faith of things that are untrue, so that you don't get scared out of your mind.
The "not bothering rule" has to do with how scared you are down deep. The devil knows that God exists. He is afraid. And he has passed that fear down to you, his children. He's got you.
You don't have to stay trapped by the devil. Jesus-faith is available for everyone. Come out of your trap into truth and freedom. It's available for you even if you don't join a formal religion. Then you can stop bothering the Christians and each other with your own not bothering rule.