But that is not easy! I was addicted in the past so I know how hard it is. I just cried every night at that time since I don't want my wife to leave me. I can't stop gambling, in fact until now I am still gambling despite the fact that I am addicted in the past. I just can't stop though I can control myself the thing is that I can't remove gambling that easily in my life, that is how hard it is.
I feel the pain you must have gone through but I am really puzzled how despite knowing all the negatives about gambling why are you still gambling, I mean you know the pain and the suffering caused but you cannot just leave it? If such is the case I strongly recommend you to visit a psychologist as soon as possible please.
I cannot imagine how additive gambling has become now days that despite knowing the true facts we cannot detach ourselves from it, I too was a gambling addict but never too serious and never had to take too much stress for it.