Topic: I'd like to ask for some help. - page 7. (Read 8464 times)

In talking with some of the people I bet with, I learned of his unfortunate circumstances (which I hope were not due to mining rigs). We all think of this community like a small town, but unlike a small town, we can't directly see what is going on with our neighbor unless that neighbor tells us. I would like to help share the story of one of those neighbors.

http://bitcoinbasics.wordpress.com/tag/crosby/
http://ottawa.ctvnews.ca/7-people-homeless-after-vanier-blaze-1.1108019

never forget what happened, and recognize that the entrepreneurial blood in your veins is your gr8est strength and weakness. If you let the need to create / innovate interfere with your basic needs, sleep and relaxation, you will just lose control again. your defiantly not "normal", normal people don't drive themselves crazy working too hard on something they love... keep this in mind.

People:

Forgive, but do not forget. The end.


If you want to discuss what he did in the past, move it to the other mega thread.

Bravo for coming back and taking your licks like a man.

I would recommend:

1. Startup your entrepreneurial spirit again. Build something that bitcoin needs - you are a smart kid and you will make something of yourself. You cannot talk your way out of this one, you will need to regain your rep through deeds, not words. Channel your energy into something amazing for the community.
2. Keep your scammer tag, dont make a new account. Wear it, so everytime you post you remember how bad things can go wrong if you lose sight of your humility.
3. Become conscious of your urge to troll (when it happens), watch it and let it pass. Do not act on it or on others who attempt to troll you (there are more than a few in this thread).

Best of luck to you

Make a new account Matthew, this community is unforgiving.

There's always the next day. One day, this will just be a faint memory.

I don't want to make this thread into a speculation thread of my mental health, but I would say that I spread myself too thin, was unrealistic in my expectations and valuation of myself (delusions of grandeur perhaps) and that this experience was inevitable as I was due for a humbling, unfortunate that it was such a public one. I needed to be knocked down a notch, and I still need some time to get back on my feet, but I have not forgotten the experiences of the past year, making a show about bitcoin, a magazine about bitcoin, a service to sell bitcoins through SMS, an attempt at a device to use bitcoins. Looking back I am just disappointed in myself at how much I did, but how little actually got done. I'll apply myself to this first, then I'll start planning ahead more for doing something people can actually use.

plea temporary insanity and all will be forgiven  

no but seriously you show all the signs of a manic bipolar.
you appeared to have lots of energy even if you didn't sleep proper for weeks or months...
you were 110% sure you were right and everyone else was wrong ( for no good reason )
I'm sure you felt ontop of the world ( b4 you finally crashed )
and after hearing that interview with you and some dude talking about your bet ( can't find it anymore ) I'm sure you were on a mania high.

anyway that's my theory...

That's not making things right.
"I could easily disappear and continue working behind the scenes, but I don't think that's what I ever wanted, and it's not what anyone else deserves. I'd like to ask some advice on how to make things right."

or, for half a million dollars, I will make you a new account with full posting privileges. deal?

You are a scammer, the only thing that can be done at this point is to pay your debts to clear your name. ~1 million dollar is a lot of money, but it's not impossible to gain that kind of money within a few years. Stop wasting your time in forums, think of some good business, make a killing, pay everyone 100% of what owed. Apology accepted. Good luck.

First Lance and now this.  Too much ...head exploding.

I actually do owe many people apologies for the rude behavior I had over the past year, not just you. Looking back I see I was out of control. I am no longer here to judge anyone.

I'm sorry for your losses Leo, I know you tried to bring a service to the community and I am aware that you and your wife have had difficulties in doing so, that you have shared similar failures as I have in the very difficult world of start-ups. I had a talk with Charlie Shrem of BitInstant about you a while back, and I remember him speaking fondly of you. I think the main issue, as I've come to learn, is that people, myself included, like to assume that what other people do is who they are and not just what they do. I see now the obvious market manipulation attempts, the SEO assassination attempts, and faux interest all around me that perpetuates the bitcoin 'community'. I see this forum is being used against people just as much as it is for people. The difficult part is that I also saw myself as being a part of that mess. I went too far though. I'm just sorry I didn't have the sense to realize it until I had already disappointed so many.

The point of this thread was to spark some minor discussion into what could be done about my past inappropriate behavior. You have come to add to the discussion and I thank you for that. I wish you the best of luck on future endeavors.

I tend to agree with you...

i think this is a classic case of "let he who is without sin cast the first stone"
so MNW had a manic episode, which lead him to inadvertently scam forum members... no one lost any money from the bet directly....
very little harm actually took place, and yet everyone went ape shit on this mentally unstable young man.

bra - fucking - vo

Welcome back, Matt

Well, sometimes when you are all the way at the bottom, the only way up is to stand  on top of those who are down there with you...

Note to  new users : Maria is more reviled and less trusted around here than Matthew.

See, this is why we can't have nice things.

Indeed.

The irony.