Personally, there have been times when I've thought about taking my life but I always remind myself that it's just a bad day and for sure tomorrow will be different. I want to quit gambling but I can't. I don't know why. Hopefully this won't happen to me.
This is not a good sign, though. If the thought continues, then I'd advise that you take a break from gambling until the urge to take your life dies down.
The fear of having this type of thought or any other depressing thought was the reason I stopped streaming gamblers, because I don`t want a situation where I'll start having the "If I were the one" thought.